MisSiNg YoU

update

2011-12-21T11:32:00.001+08:00

I'm back for update! :)

On sat, drive for 6 hrs to find local bridal. Only went 2 cos wanna compair. Went to yvonne creation which is the ppl outside pull one. Lol. After abt an hour left to white link as i have an appt with the lady. Talk abt 2 hrs there. After much talk, they actually offer us $2960nett. Which the actually package cost $3500. Throw in mani peaks. But nv confirm on spot.

On sun, decided to go in JB and look at the bridal. Jb is much easier cos we only looking at Fables. Went in and after fews hours of talk and see gown, decided to take jb one. After Conversion is abt sgd$1.8k. Add on local make up n stay. Misc cost is still cheaper then SG. :)

on tue, went down to simon photography to take a look. Like it so much cos the photo dun have much edition which is what i want.The total for video and photography cost $1.6k. has Place deposit too.

Finally all major things settle. now is wait for our first appt for house which is on jan. After tat feb i need to go fitting and photoshoots. :) after our photoshoots, we need to go make our cards. So much things! But most of all pray hard that all will be smoothly done!

Got to end here already. Will update again!

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finally

2011-12-15T10:21:00.002+08:00

Finally i'm back!~ new "title" now. LOL! no longer "Miss" liao. haha.

glad that everything thing went smoothly. dun really can recall liao. haha. sth sad is my make up abit white. -.-" haiz. dunno is the camera problem or really is the make up. anyway lucky overall some photo is still good. ;)

all photo is in my FB. too mani lazy to upload here. haha.

now, searching for ID(interior designer) for our house reno. 1st appt on 19 Jan! ;) this mth got to book my bridal already. at least 1 major thing is down ma. decided to take the bridal at JB. overall i still love the outdoor there. ;) and also got to place deposit for photo and videographer for our Actual day.

Time really fly fast, gg xmas then new year soon. and after new year, will be excited abt my pre-wedding shoot then house will come in abt march. after house is done, i have to settle the chinese wedding stuff! ARGH! seems is a busy year. hope everything turn out well and good. pray hard that all xiao ren go away!

abit out of topic here, recently i realise there is alot of faker. which means like put a mask on their faces. dunno for what. and also realise that dun be so kind to everyone cos ppl will nv put you in their heart.

whenever thinking of my wedding jie mei, i wonder, where are my galfrenz? sometimes really dunno what to do. anyway is not a big problem, cos my cousins can help. hope things gonna turn out well!

got to stop here already. will update soon. will end here with 1 of my favourite ROM pic.

Loves~~

Update

2011-11-27T17:08:00.002+08:00

Time to update again. Has been so long nv update liao. :)

Re buy my shoe due to not suit my dress. Bring back my dress on wed when is done. Finally ytd find shoe that think not bad. And glad that is nice and better then the previous one. Have Settle flower petal, thanks to XX for the help. Cos need to trim it. bb also has bought his shoe. Also Bring gown to dry wash too. Went down amk book my flower too. Left with only some hair cut for me and bb.

Ytd also bring mei mei to shoe for dress cos she dun have 1. Walk till leg almost break lo. But still glad that found 1. :) went to book shop and buy ink pad cos ah ma dunno how to sign so need thumb print.

Left with only 5 daes. Hee. Times fly. The only thing now is dunno after rom wan go where. Wanted to book a hotel to stay but dunno where lei. Haiz. See how ba.

Oh ya. Did i mention that we have book our wedding performers for the actual dae? Got promo and we book them. Hee. After rom got to find bridal shop liao. Hee.

And also we have settle with bank loan. Now wait for first appt on jan. :) the earliest will take hm is feb or early march. Now finding ID too. Need to find what is the roughly cost.

Here are some pics to share.

Jus pray hard things is gg smoothly from now on. :)

Update

2011-11-14T10:14:00.005+08:00

Woooo~ it has been so long since last update.

Have settle Bf's cufflinks @ Tangs last last week. budget is abt $20+ but ended up i bought it at $69. LOL. Received flower petals too but disappointed with the quality. haiz. jus hope it turn out nice if not then not using le.

(6/11/11)

Went to do my rebond on 1week of nov. cos me $210. -.-" heart damn pain lo. haiz. but ai sui la. what to do. till today the front like abit cannot make it lei. knn. called the salon guy and tell him. will go down on 19 nov again to let him see and redo. if he is not bf frenz i sure scold liao. haiz. jus hope it will turn out nicely.

(7/11/11)

Went AMK to alter my gown. total cost $30. collection end mth. i pray hard it gonna turn out well. i tell bf i abit scare cos nv alter any clothes before scare they ruin my gown. haiz. -pray pray-

Fri(11/11/11) what a nice date, early morning received a msg from our agent that lowest the seller want is 39k. i feel abit unbalance cos is really high COV lo. reach office talk to my colleague and decide to take(reason below). Call bf and ask him tell agent to arrange for 2nd viewing today so can place deposit. the reason y wanna rush cos weekend is coming, there will have more ppl go viewing. afraid others offer higher then us then tats it liao.

waited till 5 plus, finally agent call and confirm. we was so happy. haha. the reason y end up will decide on this flat is because

1) the Blk is jus infront of LRT station.

2) 1 blk away got 24hrs coffee shop, prime super market, bakery shop, clinic, salon, ATM, AXS & post box.

3) this unit is in 16 floor and only have 3 family include the one we wanted to buy. Reno of the house not bad too. jus need some little painting and reno only. and also have a big corridor which suitable for like buffet/catering.

This is the reason y we so kan chong to place deposit.

when reach there, something happen cos the seller wan to do contra which we will do contra too if we taking HDB loan. but 4 application cannot submit all together one. therefore is a headache. Oh ya we also bring FMIL along for the 2nd viewing. glad tat she like the place and the flat. talk talk and talk and finally settle and sign the OTP and give them the 1k chq. Overall we bought this flat at 469k(39k COV). now we trying to get bank loan to approve. pray that god will help us if not have to stick to HDB liao.

(12/11/11)

After work, went down to CHV to sign the contact for banquet. had our free buffet lunch there. thank to bf lo. he ask from Carrie, our coordinator. haha. after sign took cab and back home.

After so mani weeks finally i brought my shoe ytd. consider veri long then decide to buy. is from Black hammer. the lady shoe name is Anna Black. LOL! anyway i like it cos is veri comfortable and simple. having discount so ended up only pay $20+. ;)

Now only left with bf shoe to buy. time fly so fast, i only left with 2 weeks+ time. pocket gg to have a big hole again. seriously wedding = money sucker! Overall money can buy a car straight away la! ARGH!

The to-do list & payment on nov end,

1) 26 Nov- Collect ROM gown from alter shop

2) 29 Nov- Dental appt

3) 30 Nov- Go ROM office for verification and collect Ring (payment left-$1288)

4) 2 Dec- Deco payment left $71.50, MUA payment left $100

Overall, need to spend abt 1.6k exclude mini celebration on 2 dec nite. $$$$$$$$ Fly~~~~

i jus hope time and days fly and faster get over all this. the stress is really abit over. =.=

Here is some pics.

The Flower Petals

Bf's Cufflinks

My shoe. ;)

To Ai Fang Darling,

Hey Dear, Really surprise to see what you wrote on your blog. it really touch my heart and tears. is too unexpected already. hee.. thanks again for the wishes and also hope to hear your good news too even is still quite long. ;) although we dun always meet but we will always be there for each other. thanks to be in my life. ILY! Hugs!

[I pray,I hope everything gonna be fine and smooth.........]

Venue done.

2011-10-15T11:21:00.001+08:00

Ytd took half day leave due to contact lens problem. After tat went to buy new contact lens and back hm.

Abt 5 leave hm ad go central to do some transfer and took train down to dg meet bf to go bows to meet the cvh coordinator.

Talk abt the pkg and manage to ask for addition barrel of beer and 1 addition night free executive suite valid for a year. :) after sign and place 2k deposit. Pocket burn. :(

After done walk ard there and leave to take train bck tpy buy dinner and back hm.

Lately dunno y pimple break out! Haiz. :( hope face gonna turn better.

Now mostly all are done. Left with dec need to go bridal shop and deposit for photo and videographer for actual dae. Feel much better now. No much stress.

Next mth got Mani things to do. Need to alter my Rom gown, after tat collect gown, buy heels, bf shoe, cufflinks, go down Rom office to collect the cert and do some verification, collect our wedding band, meet up with xx and Willie for rom tat dae the things. After list down like got so Mani things lo. And all is money again. Haiz.

Hope we go through this fast!

Oh ya btw bf sae wanna bring me go maldives for honeymoon. Lol. Let's see how ba. Still deciding. An after rom or wedding, we will go sz to meet someone. Really hope god bless us in health and money. Haha.

Will update again if there is anything!

Back on rom

2011-10-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

Finally back to update on my rom.

Done with deposit on the make up artist and the deco. Now jus slacking. Lol. Dun have the feel. Lol. When date is nearer maybe will start nervous ba. Haha.

Btw fat fly off to male again last fri. Hope he come back early. Kanna miss him. Lol.

Nth much to update le. Will be back again! Bye!~

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update on rom

2011-09-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

Back to update.

finally done our efile ytd. and also make deposit to MUA and deco today. finally things is almost done. now only left with shoe, bb cufflinks, alter my dress, his shoe. tats all i can think now.

Not Feeling well now, got to go slp le. Finally is fri tml! :)))

Next week for booking actual day banquet. big hole again. >.<

Wedding

2011-09-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Todae after work went to the central to look for dress as my Frenz sae there have a shop for big size. Finally found Bt dun like any down there. After tat we decide to go to far east cos I found another shop online.

Have tried about 5 gown. Love afew Bt it cost quite alot which is over our budget. And also is abit too elegant. After Rom can't wear plus behind nd someone to help me tie the ribbon which is troublesome. Bb ask me to try on a simple yet nice one. So I went. Turn out not bad. Jus tat nd to alter the length shorter and dun so "pom" also the bust there tighter. Will only go end of oct. Now is too early. Decided to brought the dress as the shop is closing down next mth. After 30% discount it cost us $159 instead of $200+.

After tat we walk to ion for wedding band as bb sae since we like it so much we go place deposit cos once sold. We gg to headache again.

Damn coincidence that the ring in display is our ring size!

Here are the dress and ring.

it look damn big on photo. When I first saw this I also tot is over big and not really nice. Bt after wear I like it. It suit what we wan which is simple and sweet. :)

This is the ring we both like it. Mine is with diamond and bb one dun haf. Hee. :) btw is sliver and rose gold. Due to the light it seems like whole thing gold.

When home after all shopping. At abt 6plus bb boss call him. Ask him to go beach road and take tonite F1 tix from him. He was damn happy. Lol. Cos he keep wan to go Bt tix are too ex he Bu she de. Haha.

After he come back, get prepare and left to aunt hse at hougang. Had dinner and some chat there then left at 9plus to F1.

Due to road closed, we took cab to circle line then take train to esplanade. Walk damn far and finally gt to sit and our seat.

Race at 11 plus. Had a hard time getting out. Too mani ppl. Took us damn long to walk out. Finally took a train at twelve plus and reach hm at 1 plus.

Done with all bathing. Gt to slp soon. Finally some stress are free. :D

Deco settle

2011-09-21T22:43:00.001+08:00

Some update on my rom stuff. A very big thank you to Naomi for giving me website for deco. And also a company which do deco. I fall in love with the pink theme. So call up and check. The price is slightly over our budget. But bb agree. Lol!

Mon after work we went to holiday inn for dinner cos tat time brought the buffet voucher from insing then is gg to expired le. so faster use. After dinner we take train from somerset to orchard ion. Shop ard for wedding band. See a few shop Bt only like 1 from citigems. Sales ppl will always wan to promo something ex to you. But i told tat lady no matter how ex the ring is if you are unable to have a long marriage tat ring will go in the drain too. Then she look at me. Bb sae me siao haven married sae divorce. Haha. Aiya wat i sae is true wat. Anyway I'm a person Nv always think positive la. Haha. Anyway we eye on this pair Original price is $2k+ after promo is only $1388 nett. Gd deal? we Nv buy or wat cos still wanna have more look. After tat jus went home.

Todae we went to amk hub. Walk ard and see ard too. Still we still like tat pair at citigems. Check on the ring size and how much pair is left. As this design once sold means no more already. Mostly will place a deposit first.

Here are the pics to share on the rom deco. I'm talking abt.

This is how it gg to look. But I dun wan fresh flower as center piece as it cost more too and also mine is indoor not outdoor. So the person sae can replace a birdcage for me. After I saw it. I totally in love!

This is the birdcage. Lovely rite?! Damn lovely I would sae. Haha. How to resist. Lol.

More things have found. Jus haven done any deposit. Next have to do research on my rom dress and MUA.

Before the day come, I still pray hard that everything will go on smoothly. ♥

Wedding plan

2011-09-20T10:11:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm back to blog.

Jus a news to share, Me and bb will be doing our rom this 02 dec. :) has been changing over and over again. Bt this date is confirm already.

Therefore, i will be updating blog with our wedding preparation cos i wanna rmb every process that we do. :)

So far we have look for our wedding band, JP and rom deco. Having some headache on the deco.

Actually wanted to do at rom office Bt since changi village hotel can provide me a room to do my rom for free why not. Jus that they wun do the deco as actually have to pay $1.5k for the room with deco which we think is pointless. We only wan sth simple. Therefore decide to do our own diy. After the ceremony we will have buffet lunch there.

Ytd I wrote an email to the JP DR Phua to check whether he is available on 2. Dec 10am. Bt instead of writing 10am I have put 10pm. Lucky bb found out and rewrote the mail to DR Phua. This morning when reach office, I open up my mail and saw the repy. Is kind of reject cos bb wrote the date as 02 dec 2012! -.-" so I faster call DR Phua to tell him the error. Feel damn ps and laugh. He did too. Lol. Then guess what. He is so nice to confirm with me on Fon and ask me to send him all details and he will write the consent for us! Weeee!!~ by right we have to write Ourself then send to the JP to sign. He is so nice. :)

Now waiting for his consent to mail to me so I will be able to do efile. :)

It will be a busy mth starting from OCt. Got to search for rom dress and shoe. Got to place deposit for our actual day venue. Meanwhile also coordinating mails with photographer for our actual dae in year 2012.

Oh so busy!

Jus really pray hard that everything will go on smoothly.

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back!

2011-09-13T12:51:00.002+08:00

Haven been update lately. being lazy actually. haha. =X now having lunch break so i'm here to update a little. :)

bb is finally with me after 2 weeks of flying ard. -.- he went to shanghai first after tat fly to Maldives. had a big quarrel on fri nite. but everthing is fine already.

tml taking leave as nd to pray for ah ma(stepmum side) 1 year death anni. after tat will nd to go HDB and banks regarding the flat.

planning for a wedding is not easy. having lots of stress. lots of money concern. haiz. but still hoping tat everything is gonna be smooth!

my work is still as usual, boring and boring. LOL! jus hope tat there is pay increment if not gonna change job le. now have to work for money instead of comfort zone already.

will try my veri best to blog again. =P

[[Missing you always.]]

Update

2011-08-29T19:54:00.001+08:00

Finally update le. Bb left sg ytd nite to shanghai for business trip. Feel weird without him. :( Bt of cos happy cos at least the company lo. His company book SQ flight for him sia. Mai siao siao. Lol! How I wish I have tat too. (jus dream on!! Haha!!)

Today actually wanna go gym when after work. Bt due to ytd slp at 4am. Then this morning wake up by bb call at 7am. -.- scare slp back will overslept so rather force myself to bath then take bus to work. Bring all my gym stuff Bt ended up leave in office as wed will be gg so jus put there dun wan take here and there.

Now already hm. Feeling damn tired.think I'm gg slp soon. Will have to blog again.

Missing bb badly!!! ♥♥♥

Update

2011-05-02T03:11:00.001+08:00

After so long finally here for updates. :)

Nth much happen actually as all weekdays I will be working and after work will be home. For weekends will always mj. -.-" ya boring life. Anyway sg so small also gt no place to go. Haha.

Did I mention I went to extract my wisdom tooth? Therefore was on mc for 5 daes. Shiok lo. After 2 weeks went back to take the stitches out. And now everything is done. :)

While on mc, which before I start work, I went to auntie Jenny salon to perm hair. Nth to do. Lol. Bt out turn disappoint me. My hair became veri spoil lo. Haiz. Jitao sad lo. Cos abt $70+ if Nv rmb wrongly. Keep telling bi I wanna cut off Liao cos really cannot stand it. After 1 week I think, bi pass me a voucher which is kimage salon. Each $100 spend gt $50 off. Is a great deal. Anyway jus nice tat can redo my hair. Make appt on 30 and went there at 230pm. End up wait till 3pm plus then do. The hairdresser is really a nice person. She is also veri veri friendly. Teach me alot of tips on hair. :) anyway got my hair re perm. Bottom is digital perm n top and front she do reborn which is free. Sit till till I almost die. Cos really veri long. End my session at 730pm. Brought a hair product from them too. Overall spend $155 for hair and $38 for the hair product. If no discount, it will be $305. Damn ex lo. Glad tat bi got the voucher for me. Hee.

After tat meet bi and center had our dinner and wait for wei. She came and start mj. Till morning 6am. -.-" tired. Wash up and slp.

Till 3 plus bi wake me up. Had pasta mania for late lunch and start mj again at 6pm plus when wei cam. Play till 12 plus and finally end. Actually wanted to go Arua tonite. Bt bi wasn't feeling well therefore Nv go. Was watching tv now.

Tml is holidae. Finally another long weekend. Hope time after fly. Left with only 11 daes to bkk!

Didn't realise now is already 3am+ le. Time to slp. Nite ppl!

Ending with my new hair. :)

Nitey!

*missing all my dearest!

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20th mth

2011-04-09T03:10:00.001+08:00

8/4 slack at Hm till abt 5pm went to amk and meet bi. Went to ping shi for dinner. Then shop ard at centre. Brought a door stopper. Simply love it cos too cute. Haha. After tat we went to watch movie. After movie then went Hm already.

Todae is our 20th mth. I've bought a bracelet for bi. Cost me almost $100 lo. Diaox. Bt cos he like so I buy lo. Surprise him when clock strike 12. :)

The present. :)

The stopper. :)

Hoping for a good future!

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Wisdom tooth remove

2011-04-07T01:39:00.001+08:00

Todae 6/4 was on mc. Went to national dental for my right side wisdom tooth remove. Wake up 8 plus. Due to appt at 10am. End up wait till 11am like tat then go in. Was damn scare la. Although is the 2nd time I'm doing. Bt still as long as abt tooth or dental. My fear Nv go off since young. Lol.

Had my surgery abt 1hr. This doc is really gd. Fast and gentle. Lol. After done went to take medicine and change the cotton and had my medicine. Walk to mrt and wanted to take train to tpy centre Bt I feel pain so mum decide to take cab Hm. Brought some food Bt end up Nv eat cos nt nice. Went to take a short nap and

wake up at 5.30pm. Jus nice tat bi msg me. After bi finish work he went to find porridge for me. Bt too bad cannot find end up buy mashed potato for me to eat. Brought pan dan cake back also cos tml they went to work then I will be Hm alone. :(

Oh ya. In total I had 5 daes mc. Therefore only gg back to work on mon. Shiok huh. Nt totally cos will be alone. Sian.

Wanted to slp with bi at 11 plus. End up I can't slp so I come to blog. My wound is still bleeding. So uncomfortable la. Hope it will get well tml ba.

Dunno wat to update already. Shall update again ba. Nite nite!

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Wedding show

2011-04-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

I'm here for short update. :)

Todae actually off. Bt change with my colleague cos next week I'll be gg for my dental. Dun wan waste a sat mc. Work till abt 12. Fat came to my office look for me. He off work early. Once 1230pm we left office and went down to beach road for his favorite bak kut teh.

After lunch, we cab down to hotel re. Attending their enchanted garden wedding show. Quite disappoint me actually. Not wat I wan actually. Received some freebie from then. Stay there abt 30mins and decide to leave. Cab Hm after tat.

Reach Hm bath and help fat to do mask after tat bath and wait for ah wei to come for mj. She sae 4pm end up came at 6pm. -.-" end up play 3 round only. As mum tml gt to work so gt to end.

Tml will nd to go ah biao hse for steamboat. Hope I wun feel bored ba. :) feeling tired. Gt to slp already. Will update more. :)

Nite nite!

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Happy!

2011-03-30T00:19:00.001+08:00

Todae Fat got his pay and after work we went to NEX to buy ifon. He insist of getting me an ifon 4 yet I'm looking forward to ifon 5. -.-" anyway he sae if 5 launch Liao and I like then buy again. Haha.

After buying we gg to have late dinner. Bt end up dunno wat to eat. From b1 walk to level 4 then back to level 1. End up decide to smoke first. After smoke I decide to eat LJS. After dinner smoke again then shop ard. Went to taka to wash my ring since we saw tat shop. After tat we decide to go Hm as feeling too tired.

Fat suggest to take cab back. Was so happy la. Finally lo. Haha. While waiting for cab we smoke. And while talking suddenly a lady tap fat shoulder from the back. I tot who sia. End up heard he called her Jie then I realise is his sis-in-law. Lol. Talk awhile and she left. Cab came after tat.

Reach Hm start my com and back up my 3GS. Then went to bath. After bath tat stupid Fon still syncing. Finally done an I start to sync my new ifon 4. End up all my apps gt problem lo. So no choice have to sync again tml and do.

Now is already 12 plus. Veri sleepy Liao. Bt my Fon still syncing. -.-" hope it faster done then can slp Liao. :)

Hopefully everything will be smooth and fine in my life.

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Unknown

2011-03-22T16:20:00.001+08:00

I dunno wat happen to me. Something seems not rite. Getting more n more irrated lately. He doesnt seems the same. Haiz. Maybe im jus too stress.

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Finally update

2011-02-19T00:34:00.003+08:00

Blog is Full of spider web liao. LOL! finally do some changes to my blog. damn tired lo. btw Here is my late wish to all readers! HAPPY 2011! Hope is a great year for all ppl. =)

dun really noe wat to update now. jus some random update.

finally Monster got a new job which is monthly paid instead of comm base. happy tat life is gg to be much better. Our r/s is still up and down to me. We still will quarrel. Lots is attitude problem. the journey to here is not veri long and also not veri short. but we have went through quite alot of things together.Yup here to sae we will be getting married next year end if things is gg well and we are really stable.

shall end here as my mind blank le.

Will be updating again and will try to make it a daily/weekly one.

Wish all my love one be happy always. LOVE!

wee wee!!~~

2010-11-11T15:31:00.003+08:00

Went for 3D2N batam trip, here is the update. =]

05/11/10

Woke up at 8 plus. cos nd to reach by 10 plus cos holiday alot of ppl. so we went to bath, change and then head to take MRT to harbour front. reach there and went to "batam fast ferry" to collect our boarding pass. when is done we went to Mac and had our breakfast there. after breakfast, we walk around there. i realise ppl harbour front shops open so early. is like 8 plus alot of shop already open. i told bb tat the boss here is so clever. cos there will always be ppl early there as they will be taking ferry out from here so they open early will have ppl shop shop round and make abit more business from those early bird lo. had our last cig then check in to the ferry. damn lots of ppl la. aiyo. buy cig from duty free and wait for time to enter the ferry. our boarding time is 1210pm. it takes abt 45mins to batam.

reach and we saw harris staff there smiling veri veri wide at us. and sae "welcome to batam" so nice and sweet huh. and then we took their shutter bus to their resort. is not veri far away from ferry terminal only 5 mins. once reach harris, there are so mani staff welcome us and bring us welcome drink and also towel to clean hand. they have staff dancing there to welcome the guest too. que up to check in. but end up our room which is cabana, is not ready. so have to wait. when to the cafe and had our lunch and slack down there. till 230pm batam time, we got our room finally. as cabana room is at the beach there so we follow the sign and walk. till half way, we saw the guard there. he greet us and ask which room we are and bring us over. wat a gd place huh. =) he ask for our room key and help us knock the room door and open.i love it so much when we saw the room. is not veri veri big but is nice and cosy enough. stay at room for awhile then we head out to walk walk. we walk to the bowling alley to see see then we went to foot massage for an hour. =)

after tat we went to the shop in there and brought some biscuit and also noodles in case middle of the nite we hungry wanna eat. the cafe down there is ex. all pay in SGD. after walking and exploring ard, we went back to our room. bath, change and then watch tv. they have DVD player inside. you can also go to the lobby counter and rent their DVD.

nite time abt 8 plus batam time, i hear "boom" boom" boom" i tot is wat. so i tell bb i go out see as he already slp till dunno where liao. LOL! and guess wat. i saw FIREWORKS! is like wow! damn nice can. due to deepavali they have fireworks. after the fireworks end, i went to the lobby and rent some DVD and back to room. by then, bb wake up liao. so we watch DVD and half way through, i fall aslp.

06/11/10

both wake up at abt 8 plus batam time, wash up and go to cafe and had our free breakfast. their breakfast is really nice. bb went to counter to book the bus to nagoya hill which is their "town" for shopping. is free as is in our package too. the time of the bus is 1030am but slot is full so they open another slot at 1130am. so after breakfast, we sit by the pool side for awhile then head back to room. change and out for swim. =] swim for like an hour, went back room bath, change and went for bowling.(is in our package too. free 1 game) after bowling went back room again cos i tell bi i wanna wash leg as the shoe like smelly lo. haha. after wash slack awhile till abt 11am(batam time) then we head out to lobby. there are so much ppl waiting too. finall bus came and we head to nagoya hill.

there is so much to see when on the way to there. you can see a young kids like maybe 14 or 15 riding a motor without helmet and with their brother or sister on bike. or you may see a father riding a bike with 4 children and all with no helmet. is damn danger to us. but to them it seems normal. there are mani poor family at there. alot of kids riding bike. so i ask bi, they no nd lic here one ar. bi sae no nd. as long as they noe how to ride then they can ride le. i was so shock. batam road is veri uneven. alot of crack here and there. alot of kids walking on road side. if you drive there, better be careful of the kids there.

once reach there, we went to A&W! hee. had some food there and shop around. brought "tong lou shao".hmmm actually nth much la. didnt really have things i like. so we go to supermart and shop. keke. buy lots of food. after tat we went to JC Donuts and brought 6 pcs of it. hee. we decide to took cab back cos nth much for us. the bus will only come at 4pm to fetch us. ask for the price. is ex to me la. SGD15 + Rdp100,000. is abt $17 lo. although i feel ex but i too tired la. so we take lo. reach le we went back to room and rest awhile. went to swim again at evening time. after tat back to room again bath,change, slack then head out to dinner. =] we had late dinner. and while waiting we heard the fireworks sound again. this time i manage to take some foto. hee. suddenly it rain veri heavily. is was soooo cold lo. after dinner went to rent DVD again and back to room. keep eating and eating. lol. half way through the DVD show, i fall aslp again.

07/11/10

wake up abt 8am again. Had our breakfast and back to room. slack around till abt 11 went to bath and start pack up. leave the room abt 12pm. after bb done with the check out, we went to collect our boarding pass. and slack at cafe. had our free lunch there. at abt 1 plus the bus to terminal one is here. took the bus and went to terminal. we choose the 210pm(batam time) ferry back to SG instead of the 4 plus one. sit at the ferry custom there till abt 150pm like tat the gate then open then start check in.

reach SG abt 4 plus(SG time). went duty free to buy 2 bottles of matell for grandma and out of the check point. walk opp harbour front to took cab back home.

hmmm i would like to sae is a veri nice place which have lots of nature things. i love the nature in there. those views is so beautiful! there is so much foto so i upload in FB.

oh ya. congratz bb tat last week before we went batam, he closed a deal. =) finally the egg break. LOL! although the com not alot but still is money. hee.

Ytd went kiddy palace to brought a car car which can sit de for him. hope he like. =) time start to fly already. so fast todae is Thurs. Sat gg to nephew 1st bdae at NSRCC. renting 1 dae car for tat as is too wooloo liao.

lately bb have lots of event to attend. i think i'm gg to bored to death liao. gg to find ppl to meet up for dinner le. will have to stop here already. got to start working. will update again!~

long weekend

2010-11-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

Tis month damn broke. Cos book batam trip for this coming long weekend. Gg batam! Hee. Getting excited. Cos I nv go before. Seeing review abt the resort make me even more excited. Keke. Anyway hope it will be a nice n wonderful trip. :). Looking forward to it. Oh ya. Congratz to my love. He finally closed a sales after 2 mths of hard work. Hope he will keep closing sales and daes will be better. Hee. Lately company come a new gal. As jc is leaving on 12. Hope things will go well ba. Anyway I'll be leaving this company next year after bonus. Nd a higher pay job in order to make my life better. :)Time fly damn fast. Gg 2011 again. Hope it will be a veri gd year for me and love. Hope everything gg well.

i hate you

2010-10-18T15:39:00.002+08:00

ytd whole dae at home. keep eating and eating and eating. -faint- dunno y keep feeling hungry after 2 hrs. LOL!

not in a veri good mood todae. monday blue? maybe. haiz. i hate it when he neglect me. damn it. at times he didnt even noe. wat i can sae? i dun wish to think too much but at times he making me to do so. actually wanted to go kusu island on this weekend de. cos i nv go before. then was thinking the trip wun be ex. wan to go see see and pray heng heng. but when i tell him then he sae will have alot of ppl. then i tell him only can go on sun cos sat ferry is morning 9am, then 12pm last is 3pm. as i got work on sat. so if we go then it will be 3pm ferry which i feel veri no point. cos the last ferry back from kusu to sin is 430pm. i tell him no point go there 130hrs only ma. he sae there also got nth should have enough time. F lo. really spoil my mood totally. i nv go before. of cos after pray will wanna walk around ma. then he like tat sae. kaoz. totally dun wan go already. since he think alot of ppl will go then forget it! i can go on my own/frenz next time. everytime i plan on sth which he dun feel like then he will spoil my mood. kaox. wun wanna plan anything anymore la. hell.

oh ya. btw i feel so boring lately. no ifon. as tat supid pig lost his ifon so i lend him mine. as my extra fon is F480 which is pink and i think if give him take F480 he will look so gay. out of a veri good heart i lend him and yet he keep telling me he dun mind use my F480. should let him have it then when the next time he sae.

[[i jus pray hard for a better future. i hate suffering from poorness! haiz.]]

161010

2010-10-16T14:07:00.002+08:00

should be having diet these daes but has been eating so much since ytd. -.-" having diet is really so tough but still have to jia you. ^^

jus update some foto in blog. keke. so tired. later gg to stepmum side there eat as she call up as we go. even boring also no choice la. lol.

todae suppose to go do exercise de. but both r lazy. haha. will update again when free. =)

Finally update! =)

2010-10-15T16:36:00.003+08:00

i realise it has been damn long time ago since i last blog.

bibi already back on Mid Aug. time fly so fast tat now is already gg end oct already. now he is working in a wine company. things isnt gg really well now.

lately keep having bad mood swing and get irrated easily. dunno y. feel like being alone at times. haiz. hope i will get better soon ba.

a roughly update. Stepmum side grandma has pass away peacefully on 24 Sept. ever since tat bonded in between tat side and us seems further. anyway is not really veri close also.

dun really have "an quan guan" with monster lately. haiz. and due to his work stress or should i sae he stress himself and he neglect me. =( and so it make my mind go wild. -.- haiz.

looking forward to mani things ahead. 1st is company cycling outing on 29 oct. after tat follow by 5th nov me and monster gg to batam. keke. is a veri near country la. but i'm excited lo. cos is my first time there. keke. i noe i mountain tutle la. lol. we gg for 3 daes 2 nite. hee. already make 1st payment last mth le. left with this mth then trip payment will be done. =)

nth much to update abt actually. my mind keep gg wild lately. haiz. maybe i really think too much ba.

Lalalalalala

2010-06-30T00:15:00.005+08:00

Todae is 29 Jun. Which means left with only a mth plus. :)

On sun went Jan's place stay. Mon she send me to work. After work back to her place for dinner then back home at 10 plus. Lately I'm downloading drama show online. Has been watching quite a few of it. Keke. Came back home and I received citi bank credit card. Damn happy la. Bt worry also. Didn't slp well as my mind cannot stop thinking. End up slp at 2 plus.

Todae nv late for work. Hee. Lucky. Bt quite tired. After work meet ash at hub. Went to walk walk as ash nd to go singtel to sign mio tv. I went to everlast shop and see their polo tee. Brought 3 pieces for baby which cost me almost $90. Counted cheap le la. Cos is on sales. If nt sure hundred plus. Went to bodyshop and brought a new perfume. Which I use credit card to pay. Only $40. So still ok. :) only awhile my $130 no more le. Lol. Actually wanna buy heels de. End up Nth caught my eyes. Found a ifon casing which I like. Keke. When baby come back will sure damn happy lo. So mani gift. Lol. Bt is for our 1 year anni de. Through out so mani anni I dun rmb I brought anything for him. :X keke. Todae miss him more. Hee. Went to pay all my bills which cost me almost $600 la. Haiz. See le also sad la. Now bank left with little again. Till 6 July insurance deduct $300. Die. :(. Hate this kind of feel la. Really hope things will turn we when u come back. Tml nd to go extend the thing. Gg to cost me another $70 le. :(

Bi, please work hard after u come back. I really hAd enough le.

[[I truly hope u will Noe how to think after come back. If nt sorri is the only thing I can sae. ]]

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2010-06-29T01:25:00.001+08:00

我累了。

random

2010-06-22T00:08:00.001+08:00

有时哭一哭会觉得心情好一点。

2010-06-21T16:41:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long long long time since i last blog. keke. lucky this time gf didnt nag me to blog. keke. so mani daes has pass without monster. i getting so so so use to it already. =X now instead of counting how mani daes already, i'm counting down instead. LOL! is easier. =P so now there is still 56 daes left.

there is nth to update actually. currently at work and the reason i come blog is cause i totally have NTH to do since morning! can you believe it. -_-" i fb till dunno use wat. cos boss ard i cant play any game. lucky boss only came in at abt 3 plus. at least not tat bad. but still i'm bored! haiz.

i've been sick for a week plus. still having bad cough. jus hope faster recover ba. jus rmb sat i went for mj with JC. then sun i went to meet jan. pei her buy things from imm gaint then back to her place. till 1 plus then go home.

next week there is cousin outing. which is stayout at orchard hotel which plan by da biao jie but i dunno wanna go ant as i feel abit sian lei. all ploy student. ..... will see how ba.

i've been thinking alot. will monster change after he come back?? i dunno. seriously i'm sick and tired of stressing abt money everi mth end. so i think i have to really think hard. i promise i give chances. i will. but but. aiya. i also dunno. the more i think the more stress i will get. jus be it ba. anyway now i think so much also pointless.

[[ppl sae when two person be in two different places will make the heart fonder(should be this spelling) but somehow i'm ""shaking"".]]

Random

2010-06-09T00:59:00.001+08:00

Jus some random post. Time is flying fast. Is already left with 68 daes le. :) I'm still strong. Diet plan didn't go really well now as mum keep force me to eat. Hahas.

Viewing MSG and wat's app MSG from baby. I think the reason I love him cos he really make my dae. I dunno how would my life change after he come back. Will he irrated me like before? Or be better? Hmmm. Of cos is too early to saw Now.

Now only hope I have is earn lots lots of money and slim down!! I must nt be lazy le. Must do sth le. Sometimes feel like asking ppl pei me go jog or walk. Bt I scare I neglet them. Hmmmm. Should keep making myself go ba. New sport shoe buy till now haven wear. Waste my dad $$ lol.

Now is already 1am. Gt to slp le. If nt tml cannot wake up. Nite ppl. Will blog again tml. :)

Dae 36

2010-06-08T17:21:00.002+08:00

Todae is dae 36 and is also our 10th mths anniversary. i nearly forget. LOL! todae too busy with work till now finally got the time.

here is some short update.

sat ah ma bdae. had dinner at amk. can sae is a grand one but not a great place. LOL! it suppose to be a happy dae. but most ppl cried. cos ah ma will not survie through this year. as she got cancer. (stepmum side de ah ma) after dinner went home wait for bro and took bus to mum's place.

sun rest at mum's place till 6 plus leave the house and went down to lucky chinatown to meet fang for singing session at kbox. sing for 3 hours and we leave. fang and her bf went to eat but i not hungry so i went to took bus back to amk.

mon went kbox again. with shindy and wei wei. ytd saw a msg. i'm feeling disappointed. haiz. i dun understand y. i make an effort yet wat i get is boring. tat moment i feel tat he didnt change at all! not at all. i tot he will grow. will be a better man. but. i'm wrong.

todae took bus to work. not late. keke. after work gg home. todae jus feel like slping early and hack care everything.

nth much to blog le. as i dun really have the heart to write anything now. will blog again.

[[Is damn sad when your love one make you feel disappointed. i dunno wat's the actual reason. i jus feel damn stupid and really dunno wat to sae. even you r not by my side now you also can disappoint me and make me have the same thinking as before that you r selfish!]]

dae 27

2010-05-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

Todae is dae 27. finally counting down 70+ dae. hope time faster fly. =)

on fri, went out during after 2 plus. went to bishan with mei mei as she wanna buy swimming suit and mum wan me help her buy track pants and shirt. walk at there and i brought sth also. keke. brought 1 shorts and slipper for myself. got baby a slipper. keke. after done with bishan we went to amk as mei still haven got her swim suit so we went amk to see. finally brought it at sportslink. =) total spend of the dae cost abt 200. LOL! but mum pay for it. keke. after done with our shopping we went home. after dinner, meet ash at interchange and take bus down to boi tua. help them out and play with babyboi. after tat ash send me back. mum came back at midnite then told me that tml which is sat afternoon got family outing on yacht. so end up got to cancel plan with fang. veri sorri abt it.

after work rush home and get contact lens. then back home bath and change. wait for mum ready and we head to ah ma house to meet the rest and went to sentosa cove for our yacht.

it is so fun. and i try lots of new things. =) a veri great dae. fot all on fb. lazy upload here. total cost of the dae is abt 5k-6k plus buffet. is damn ex can. rich ppl noe how to enjoy. LOL! i hope got one dae i can have my own too! and invite frenz and enjoy.

todae wake up at 12 plus. my hand is damn pain la. kayaked too much ytd. went to bath and boi come fetch me to tpy. meet up with jas they all and went for lunch then went to jurong to fetch babyboi then went to temple for my thing. after done, we went to imm and had ljs there for dinner. walk awhile then take train back. meet up j to take his copy ic. as i nd to go m1 and cancel the boardband. actually asking fang go with me de. but end up cousin msg and ask where m i gg tml after work. and she wanna join. then fang sae since cousin gg then she dun go le. >.<" so owe her one more. LOL! will sure meet fang one dae la!

now is getting late le. i must go slp le. in case tml cannot wake up. i hope things will go smoothly after everything is done. hope nth gg to go wrong le. =)

planning for year end trip. hope can fufil. and i decide to work hard on diet to fufil my wish! LOL!

nite ppl. will blog again. i got to slp le.

[[2 more mths and you will be back! YIPEE!!! im excited! although now i love my life as mani family outing. but still everyone is asking abt u. cant believe they love you so much! LOL! but no matter wat. u better rmb my deal. if not! u noe ar. =P baby monster! I MISS YOU! i will sure bear hug you tightly when i see you! keke. LOVE!]]

dae 24

2010-05-27T23:51:00.002+08:00

Todae is dae 24, talk to baby. i cried. feeling veri tired and stress. can see he feel sad and heartpain too. but i really ren veri hard still fail. but after tat i feeling better. hope things will be fine soon.

interview is success but fail to get the job cos they nd ppl urgently. but i nd 1 mth notice so they cannot wait. hmmm nvm la. find another one lo. if still cant then jump next year lo. if not veri bo hua. as if change after july sure year end no bonus de. haiz.

after so long, i had my 1st supper. LOL! has been so long le. i've stop supper and eat less. it did work for my diet. jus tat it is abit slow la. better then nth. =)

pay in todae le. but after tml i will be broke again. too mani debts and payment to make le. haiz. suan le ba. think so much also useless. jus pray hard this mth can fly. so wun stress for long. LOL.

tml bringing mei mei to buy her things. after tat should go jie house as she nd me help her tc of her kids. but end up she msg me tell me tat no nd le as her hubbie will be on leave. so dun think i will go over.

is getting late le. my eyes closing. nd to go slp le. nite nite everyone.

[[I Love you still my boi!]]

dae 22

2010-05-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

todae is dae 22. everything is normal todae. reach office the first one. keke. has been taking train to work since last last week. everything is fine. nv take cab at all. a thumb up for myself. keke.

gg to take time off on thurs morning, dunno whether can ant. but hope it can ba. tml gg interview. tot tat the expected salary is more then 2.5k but i'm wrong. i send the wrong one. end up is above 2k only. haiz. but still i'll go have a try. maybe there better lei. will consider ba.

tml gg to be a veri busy dae for me le. cos too mani shipment to do as fri is holidae. lucky i'm working on sat so can leave some on sat. =)

this coming weekend have program. sat jas ask me to go out with her and her family. still considering wanna go ant. will see how ba. but sun is confirm gg to jurong swimming complex with them cos my baobei is gg to have his first swim. =)

by the time baby is back baobei is gg 6 mths le. time fly huh. haha. i'm in love with family gathering la. everyone of them is getting closer and closer to me. really love it. oh ya. i might be working back ERA telemarketing after work. nd PT job at the moment. later got to find his num and call then see how. make myself busy is good. hope this time i can stay longer if really nd ppl.

i'm wondering this year got the GST ant. hope it does so i have extra money. lol.

think i nd to end now le. got to go to bed and slp le. if not tml cannot wake up le. nite ppl.

[i decide to choose this path i will walk down the road with you. no matter how hard it gonna be now, i'll still stay strong and wait for your return.]]

Dae 21

2010-05-24T23:20:00.003+08:00

Todae is dae 21 gg mth end soon. I'm stress up. With $$$ next mth totally broke. Thanks to the debts I'm paying. Sometimes I wonder. If I give up on him things will be easier for me. Haiz. I can't. I feel breaking down. How I hope I got ways to make more money. I hate stressing up for money. F!

who can understand? Wat I'm gg to do?? I dunno. Seriously. Haiz. I dun dare to sae out to him. I dun wan him to worri. I dunno how long can I hold on. I really dunno. I hope time will fly n he will be back to work hard for our gd future. If things gg continue like Tis. I'm sorri to sae I rather stay single. Y must I stress myself.

I wish. I hope. There is a way to Pull me through. :'(

dae 17

2010-05-20T13:20:00.002+08:00

Long time didnt blog le. abit lazy to blog again. LOL! Fang is saying me liao. haha. now lunch time. so come in blog awhile. todae is dae 17 le. have xi guan already. but till evening time still will get abit emo. whenever trouble or wat will think of baby. but of cos i'm missing him always.

since tue, i have been taking bus and train to work. hee. but too bad. only tue nv late. ytd and todae late. diaox. but still i will keep trying to find a faster way to work. =) when baby noe i take bus and train he will sure praise me de. keke.

missing him so much. ytd had bro farewell dinner with stepmum family. bro is in NS now. dunno how he is doing. hope he will be fine ba. mum called me. she cried. bro hurt her. haiz. i also dunno how to sae. jus tat bro ask step mum send him in but didnt inform mum. she wans to pei bro to camp de. but bro already decide wat to do but didnt tell her till ytd then call her and talk in a veri rude way. so she is veri unhappy. i think have to talk to bro ba. there is nth i can do.

later after work gg to vivo. meeting fang. but dunno she rmb ant. think she still slping ba as she nv reply me. gg to buy min min bdae present. she celebrating her bdae tml.

wun be updating my blog these daes cos tml gg min min bdae, sat gg boi there as he doing big dae. and sun also as he have yew keng. =)

dunno when can talk to baby again. i have so much things to tell him and update him. hope everything gg to be fine.

[[baby boi, i'm counting down the daes. although is still quite long to me. there are still 88 daes left. i hope time really fly fast. during these time you have miss out lots of family outing le. family member is asking me when u coming back. ppl r shock that you went for so long. rmb my words to you. i'm waiting for your return. I Love you lots boi! Hugs.]]

dae 7

2010-05-10T23:14:00.001+08:00

No mood to blog. Todae 1 week le. Jus cos I watch a show n start to tears. N I can't stop. I keep thinking of Babi. I miss you really badly. Looking thru all MSG make me cry more badly. :'(

[bibi, I WANT YOU!]

dae 5 & 6

2010-05-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

Ytd didnt blog cos i'm at mum's place. todae is the 6th dae. let me update ytd things first.

ytd after work went to tpy. meet ash and jas. after tat go back to amk. bath and prepare then go to ah ma house. having mother's dae dinner there. slack at there till 10 plus then went home with mum and mei.

change again and pack things then took cab to mummy place with didi. at abt 12 plus mum off work then she meet us downstairs and we took cab to geylang eat tim sum for mother's dae. after eat we walk around there. we saw an uncle doing tattoo there. and confirm he is drunk or eat tat kind of thing la. as he sound veri diaox. after tat we took cab back to tpy.

bath and slack. then at abt 3 plus fang called me. so we chat on fon. we talk so long lo. abt 3 hrs. haha. till 5 plus then went to bed. slp till todae 4 plus then wake up. and i have so mani miss call and msg lo. diaox.

ash call and she come over find me and help me buy lunch. eat and slack till abt 7 we went to take bus. she went home and i went home.

reach home slack around and online till now. gg to wash up and take medicine and slp le. scare cannot wake up tml. will blog again tml. =)

[baby, I'm missing you damn badly todae. truly hope time fly and u will be back soon. feel damn emo and wanna cry. i wanna hug you badly. i miss you. i miss you! :'( i'll be waiting.]

dae 4

2010-05-08T00:08:00.001+08:00

Todae is dae 4. Wake up abit late todae. Shared cab with Shindy. Reach office there buy breakfast. Nt late todae. :)

Viwawa again this morning. Lose $2 only. Feel abit diaox cos no one pay me ytd mj money. After lunch Joey return me. Supposing ww gt to pay me Bt she sae pay on mondae. Diaox. At abt 2 plus boss went for lunch. So we play again. This time round I won 20 from ww. So on mondae will have $30. Hee.

When abt off wrk time I received bb news. :) call fang after wrk and talk with her. Actually she ask me go for movie with her and her boi de. Bt I dun wan be light bulb so nv go. Ask my bro pei me go watch movie. Decide to watch the backup plan @ jubilee @ 1120pm Bt end up he cannot make it so nv go.

When dinner time, mei mei make me angry. Cos she took bowl and at there sae she dun wan to eat rice then turn the bowl. End up she broke it. And i sweep it up. After tat i eat my dinner. Dun care abt her. After awhile ok le. Watch tv with her and play hangman. Haha. After tat ah ma cleaning the kitchen. So me and mei help her wash the kitchen. Keke. After tat bath and make her slp. And Here I m to blog and gg to slp le. Tml still gt to wrk. And evening time gt mother's dae dinner at ah ma place. Think I'll end here le. Will blog again tml. Nite all~

[baby are u slping well? Did u eat full full?I feel so hungry now. If u were here u sure will cook or buy food for me de. Haiz. I miss u pampering me. I miss u lots. I wan u badly. :'(]

dae 3

2010-05-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

Todae is dae 3 only. Jus finish medicine. Here I come to blog abt todae before I go slp.

todae wake up at 715. Bath n prepare myself for wrk. Wanted to take train bt nv cos no matter wat way end up I'll be late. So I slack awhile then take cab to wrk. It cost me 19+. Reach office there realize I didn't bring key so end up eat breakfast downstairs n smoke. Till abt 837 then go up. End up no one in office. Start wrk at 845 end up 850 then ww came. Feel damn angry tis morning. Shindy told me tat Joey ask her if my bf fly off on tat dae when I'm mc. She is thinking I keng mc in order to send bf off. I really angry cos she sae things without prove. Indeed tat dae baby fly off bt I didn't go cos feeling tired and dun feel like gg as I dun like tat kind of feel. I scare I cry. So end up Willie go. Post on fb purposely to let Joey see. Dun anyhow assume. Kaox. After start work everything is ok. Lucky tat she didn't anyhow sae me if nt I sure sae her.

Viwawa early morning. End up lost 8 dollar. Due to boss come in so gt to stop. Didn't really eat lunch todae. Went downstairs buy bread and a bottle of water then back to office le. After lunch abt 2 plus boss leave office for appointment. So play viwawa again. Before play shindy ask me pay the 8. So I did. We start playing till 4 plus then boss come back. This time round I won 29. Bt nb no one pay me lo. All sae tml. Kaox. Bt at least gt money la. Hee.

After wrk thinking wanna take bus or train. End up took train back to amk and walk home. Reach home rest awhile and eat with mei mei. Then watch tv. Till 8 plus bath and then watch the 9pm show on channel 8. After end went to eat medicine and then here I m to blog. Will be slping soon as wan to wake up early tml. Wanna take train.

think I will stop here and blog tml. :)

[Baby, I hope u doing well. I hope u take gd care of urself. Apply cream when rashes veri itchy. Drink more water. Miss you. I'm counting down the daes. Although still have 110+ daes left. Hope to received news from u soon.]

dae 2

2010-05-05T22:07:00.001+08:00

Todae is only dae 2. Still gt so mani daes. I hope I can really use to it soon.

Todae wake up abt 12 plus. Suppose to meet fang go tpy. Bt end up nv. At abt 1 plus talk on Fon with fang and Willie. After end call, I went online to play fb. Till abt 4 plus 5 if nt wrong. Meet Willie at hse downstairs. He went to hub and sign for ifon. Meet up with him to do some property things then went to buy cig and back home le.

Slack in th room in fb again. Till abt 8 plus then eat dinner with mei Mei. After tat watch tv till now. Jus finish eating medicine. Gg slp soon.

For my baby boy:

I missing u so much. Whenever the night fall I miss u more. Whenever I think of u my tears is always out of control. Although when u around, u keep make me angry and irrated but now. My life seems so empty. I feel heartache. I feel sad. I miss u acting cute to me. I miss ur nagging. I miss u Tap tap me to slp whenever I can't slp. I miss so mani things. Ppl around keep asking me be strong and I tell them no worries. I can. But still whenever I'm gg to bed. I'll cry. Hope daes really pass fast and will see u real soon. Love you.

[I'll keep praying to god hope you save. And u take gd care of urself. Missing you, my boi.]

dae 1

2010-05-05T01:29:00.001+08:00

After so long, I finally back to blog. Todae. Baby leave sin already. And I'm missing lots rite now. Some how I dunno wat to do. He will only be back during end of aug or sept. Haiz. It is so long for me.

I'll try update blog everydae so baby can see. At least I now can blog through ifon instead of on my lappy.

Todae morning take mc due to slight fever. After seeing doc I meet Willie at 450 for breakfast then sit there chat from 11 plus to 2. Went home bath and meet Ke Qing for mj session. Actually start at 2 plus 3. End up. Start at 5 plus and end at 8 plus. Feel damn tired lo. After mj went back to 450 and eat dinner with Ke Qing and Willie then I realise I didn't take lunch. Lol. After dinner sit there talk again. Till 12 plus then reach home. Fang MSG me. As she Noe abt bf leaving. I really feel thankful to have her. At this point of time, show me care and concern. Tats true Frenz is. I'm really glad. Lucky I've 2 of them. 1 is fang another is Willie. :)

Chat with fang since reach home till abt 1. After tat here I m to blog. Gg slp soon as tml meeting fang at noon scare cannot wake up. Plus I 睡不觉. Haiz. Dunno how also. But still must try.

Think I gt to stop here. Will blog again tml. Nite.

[baby boy. I really missing so much. This is gg to be a big test for us. I really hope time and daes will go fast. I love u!]

happy new year

2010-02-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! HOPE IT WILL BE A GREAT GREAT YEAR FOR ALL OF YOU! And also HAPPY VALENTINE DAE TO ALL COUPLES!!! =)

Baby give me a surprise on 12 feb. he brought an ifon for me as for anniversary and valentine present. keke. really surprise me la. and due to he wan to give me surprise then tell lie to me. end up i misunderstand him. diaox. but is over le la. keke. =P

tml will have lots of places to go. this year dun have any new year mood lo. hmmm i will blog again ba. got to slp early le.

Wish all have LOTS LOTS of ANG BAO!!!

finally

2010-02-10T15:41:00.004+08:00

Whoo~~~~ So long long long nv blog already. dunno y getting veri lazy to blog le. haha. will force myself to blog more ya.

A brand new year a brand new start. few more daes will be CNY le. hope every one get lots lots of hong bao ya. =)

Have enjoy my KL trip in end dec with my love. And noe wat. I'm attached when gg over to KL and i'm Engaged when back to Sin. hahaha. Thanks for the sweet planning tat you have make with ed and rp which make this propose so success. i will always rmb this moment, 261209.

I have open a blogshop which have some item in it. please visit and buy if you like. http://www.jksloveaddictions.blogspot.com/.

During Jan, i'm busy with my prac. after prac sometimes will meet up my gf (ai fang) to shop shop. a veri boring mth for me cos every sat and sun is burn by my prac which i dun have the mood to go anywhere after tat. Baby boy have change job to property agent. if anyone wan to buy/sell or rent flat, can look for me. i can help you too. ;)

Finally feb reach. and noe wat. I PASSED my TP on 4th feb. =P i tot i will fail. but end up nv. demit point 12. keke. the instructor still give me those fail face lo. then when pass me the paper then he told me i passed. keke. so happi la.

so excited to drive as a driver and not a learner. so end up on 5th feb, me and baby decide to rent a car from ubi. after work, went down to ubi to collect car. which cost us $180 for this xiao bu dian. haha. the car name is sparks. but i call it xiao bu dian cos really small. wahaha.

after take car, we went to kallang as baby wan to take his things from his ex company. after tat went to thomson his new office to put things then to amk for dinner.

after dinner, fetch my bro and went to tpy and wait for mum to off work. till 11pm, finally she finish work le. went to jalan bersa there to eat as baby like the food there. damn ass lo. tat side so hard to find parking one. end up park at swimming complex there then walk over. after eat i and baby went back to collect xiao bu dian and noe wat we found out. kanna summon! >.<"" damn fast la. $30. diaox. after tat send mum they all back and back home.

on 6 feb, went to work in the morning. baby pei me go also. 1230pm finish work and we went to beach road for lunch. his favourite ba gu te. after eat, we went to puggol. meet my cousin and see my dearest niece and nephew. stay there abt 1 hour plus then went to amk for mj.

mj start at 6 plus due to late ppl. end up play till 10 plus lo. and sth veri bad happen. dun wish to sae. happy thing is at least baby mj won $60. haha. went to mummy place cos nd pray. after pray, baby go down and buy food. eat and rest there till 1 plus went home.

woke up at 12 plus the next morning. bath and prepare then send my bro to church at paya lebar. after tat me and baby went to pray pray. finish praying, we went to pump petrol and buy water then go to mummy place. rest awhile and leave at 5 plus 6 to chom chom to find mummy. eat dinner there. after dinner we decide to go bishan walk walk as there got chu dao bishan. nth much to walk actually. we walk till no place and have no idea where to go so we decide to go home. so lazy to drive le cos baby park at a veri high muti story carpark which i dun wan drive down. so baby drive again lo. we went back home.

rest at home and baby fix home destop. at abt 9 plus go out again. went back to chom chom again to pick mummy and send her back to tpy. and we went to ubi as we gg return the car todae. suppose to return on mon de. but we return early cos we think and think we feel veri bo hua to drive to work on mon. parking ex, ERP ex. went to ubi and meet up with ed and rp. chat awhile and we sit ed car to a cafe.(forget the name) drink and chat there till abt 1230 then went back.

it's ed bdae. and suddenly i realise so mani ppl got the same date. cos my cousin bdae also, me and baby half year anniversary and more. dun really rmb le.

on 8 Feb, after work i meet baby at amk and back home. bath and eat then went to amk hub to shop shop and movie. went to BATA and brought a white heels which i like and brought bed sheets. after tat we went to our show. "I Hate Valentine Day". not a bad show. =) after movie, back home.

nth much to update already. oh ya. i have change my blog skin abit. =P love it so much! will be back to blog once again.

[[I hope for more.]]

love

2009-12-17T23:37:00.003+08:00

anyone missing me?? LOL! has been a long time i didnt update blog le. heehee. lucky my darling r busy also. if not sure keep ask me update my blog when saw me online. haha. =P

has been busy with fatty's dad wake. uncle left us on the 8 of dec. haiz. quite sad. he veri dote me. even i'm not his son gf he and auntie veri dote me. so since the 8 to the 12 i'm busy. after tat i fall sick. fever till 38.5. faint. lucky got my baby monster to take care of me. =)

mc on the 14 and 15. back to work on the 16. on the 15, i got my 13mth bonus. hee hee. give ah ma money and change for kl trip money.

todae, meet up noda and auntie for dinner at amk hub. auntie treat me like her god daughter, so i treat her jus like my god ma. =) went to ntuc walk walk then treat them to eat dian xiao er. total cost $104+. and back to ntuc again. cos i wanna buy pillow as baby ytd sae i should buy one so both if us no nd share one pillow. >.< seems sharing pillow wan his life hor. humph. nvm. the pillow is on sale so i brought 2 pillow and brought bed and pillow protector. shop around and also brought myself a FBT shorts. total spend $75 gone again. faint. money so hard to earn and so easy to spend lo. now i only left with 300+ diaox. i still got to pay my prac abt gg 200 and return cousin and ash each 60. and noe wat. i think i will left with 0 when i go KL. .............. haiz. hope baby can yang me la! (hint hint) hahaha.

after tat went to take cab back home. meet baby, ed and rp. they at car park talking. so we smoke. due to i veri thirsty so we went coffee shop and drink water after tat back home. baby help me change bed sheet. keke. finally everything is done. hee. tonite sure nice nice to slp de. =P tomorrow meeting my gals for dinner and walk walk. hee.

i shall stop update here le. got to go pom pom and play plant vs zombie then slp le. hee.

[[thanks baby for the care. sorri for the temper and unreasonable at times. if u really wan me forever u have to learn to bear with me. =P cos i wun change. wahaha. keke. ]]

=)

2009-12-07T16:23:00.004+08:00

Hmmm have some update.

On sat afternoon, after i came back from work. baby give me this. he sae is our 4th mth anniversary gift. is simple. but i like it. is the tots that count. =)

After tat rest awhile and rush out of house as i'm late for my prac. start at 230pm but i reach at almost 3pm. =P so end up only have 30mins lesson. but also good la. cos i'm tired. and cannot drive with my mind on. =X

after prac went to wisma, as mention in pervious post. send my lappy to hospital. after tat we went to taka and i brought a top for boi boi xmas gift. and went to crystal jade to buy bread. and i brought 1 cheese cake and eclair for baby. =P after tat i'm really tired and lazy so we took cab to my cousin place.

reach there and play with my little nephew and niece. joel boi so notti. first time see baby then wan him carry le. humph!

after tat we went to plaza to buy joel boi milk powder and pack KFC back to eat.

slack there and eat there till abt 10 plus then leave le cos baby is tired. so m i.

reach home baby go online. o.O"

slp at 3 plus if not wrong.

Cute joel boi.

The two notti boi! but is also my love. =)

ytd which is sun, we whole dae at home. till nite time went to amk hub shop alittle and change money for out KL trip. brought mei mei a sch bag for xmas gift. =) after tat we went to watch zombieland @ 945pm. is nice. haha. =)

after movie, went back home rest awhile then slp at 1 plus le.

had a hard time waking up todae again. has been taking cab. =X must change le. how i hope office is only near by my place. lol. dreaming. haha.

oh ya. baby force me!! he wan me to go back his place next week. pei her mum eat lunch. wan intro me! -_-""""" help!! =((

walk one step see one step le ba. haha.

these daes of staying together, make me feel veri warmhearted. feel like 1 big family. baby is the 1st which went to my cousin place with me, family member (all side-except mummy there haven) like him much. ah ma treat him like 1 of us too. izzit tat cool. =)

i'm thinking abt the future. out of no where nth jus think. i dun wan bad outturn. hmmm. baby keep disturb and keep hinting me tat he wan xiao monster. LOL. i keep saying he crazy. anyway things is too early to sae now. now we jus happy live down the road first ba. if after the waiting thing and we are still so sweet and loving. and u prove me u can support the family, i will marry u k. =) (baby see liao dun fly hor. haha.) of cos i think got to wait for abt 2 years time in order to settle everything. still unknown la.

this silly boi of mine keep treating me veri nice. he is damn scare that i got angry. and he she bu de angry with me. i always win the "war". wahahaha. =P one of the reason i love him la. haha.

got to back to work le. will update again.

later actually gg SGH de but cos i forget mummy is off todae. so got to go pei her eat dinner and will go SGH tml. =) hope everything is well.

[[As the daes gg by, your silly, cute, dote and more really make me fall more in love in you. Jerome chin, I LOVE YOU. ]]

back

2009-12-06T12:43:00.002+08:00

finally back to blog. was lazy. recently alot of things happened. will roughly update instead of long post.

time flies, now already dec. todae is dec 6, i think of him. the 2 years. hmmm... shouldnt be thinking le.

sth bad happen to my boi. the only thing now is dun think so much. after this happened, we get more close. and baby has been staying over at my place for 1 week.. lol. he is getting well with my family members. we seems like married couple. =P

everydae after work will come home. for this whole week we keep gg to movie. have watched case 39, couples retreat, happy flight. all nice movie except case 39. i dun really like. wanted to watch 2012 so much but the tickets is always sold out if not will be left with front first 3 row. o.O"

have been gg on with my prac. already the 4th lesson. driving around eunos and ubi. baby sae he like to see me drive. LOL! i'm learning my prac with honda fit 09 verison one. like it veri much. if i have the money and when i pass, i will buy this. but is red plate. =P

shopping alot this month. broke again. hoping that have bonus. if not die. cos year end gg KL and genting.

oh ya. my lappy admitted to the hospital. =( have to pick up next week. and i have start to ship in some goods for blogshop already. mostly hello kitty adult bags. =) give some try and see how abt it. now waiting for the goods to come. hope to receive it soon. =P

nth much to update le. will update again.

[[we'll go through all the up and down together.]]

2009-11-18T13:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Frenz,

I'm helping my cousin to sell off some items below. If you are interested in any item, please send me an email at babygal2104@hotmail.com and indicate which item you are interested. thanks.

Item 1
Selling off @ $120

Item 2 (Limited Edition)
Selling off @ $300 (Lowest $280)

Item 3 (Limited Edition)
Selling off @ $120 (Front view)

(Side view)

Item 4
Selling off @ $500 (Original Price @ $700+.
Use few times only. In good condition)

2009-11-18T12:55:00.002+08:00

lunch time now. but now gg for lunch. eat too much rubbish le. =)

ytd after work took train to orchard to meet baby. todae he dun have van cos his bro nd to use. meet up with baby and we went to taka cold storage to shop shop. after buy things took train back to tpy. went back mummy place for steamboat.

eat till damn full lo. after tat slack at mummy place till 11 plus then left le.

took cab back to baby's office to take van and back home.

chat on fon with baby till 2 plus then slp.

Mobile update

2009-11-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Using mobile update now.

Baby come over to eat dinner about 8 plus. After tat watch 9pm show then tell him to go back. N he agree. Hmmm. Nothing much to say. After show end, he really left. Watch him walk to his van n drove off. Tears in eyes.

Sometimes i really dunno. Anyway I'm on bed. Gg sleep soon. Haiz dun wanna think le. I'm tired.

somehow feel tat being single also good.

Gg sleep now will update tml. Nite. :)

[[sometimes i really wish everything is perfect.]]

update

2009-11-16T15:17:00.002+08:00

i'm back to update once again. =)

1211o9

after work baby come over to fetch me and we went to whampo(dunno how to spell) to eat dinner after tat went to city square walk walk after tat to mustafa to shop shop. brought the things we nd after tat went back home.

1311o9

after work baby come fetch me and we went to vivo. shop shop at gaint and buy lots of stuff. put everythings in van le then we went to carl's junior to meet ed & rp. actually wan to eat carl's de but due to too mani ppl we change to eat LJS.

after our dinner, we went to smoke then go for our show. we went to watch Astro Boy. =) not bad show. oh ya, the funny big baby went to buy the combo which got the astro boy cup one. damn funni la. after the show we went back home le.

slack awhile and baby lazy to go home. so stay over at my place. cook noodles for him to eat as he is hungry. after tat went to bed.

1411o9

wake up at 820am like tat. abit late for work le. rush off from home. after work, baby pick me up and we went to ecp to eat carl's. after eating we went to mum's place. went off at 4 plus 5 like tat. as my cousin nd to me to pei her go buy things as she alone with 2 kids. so baby send me over to punggol(correct?) after tat baby went back office.

step mum keep calling and ask we both go over. give lame reason which is no money take cab wan baby fetch. lol. but the fact is not la. baby come over pick me at abt 8 plus 9 and we went over to step mum's grandma place. slack awhile and went off.

send my aunt back then we went to house there s11 for late late dinner. stepmum pay for it.(tats y i sae she give lame reason tat no money take cab) after eat, stepmum and mei went back home. me and baby went off to his place as he wan to change and take things.

after baby is ready, we went back to my house. fall aslp while baby is online.

1511o9

wake up at 930am by baby. ask me wake up for breakfast. o.O" he and mei went to mac and pack breakfast back. after breakfast slack around, online. then abt 12 plus eat lunch and we decide to go swimming. =)

after lunch we 3 siao kia slack on bed. till baby fall aslp. me and mei went to change and prepare after tat wake him up at 2 plus.

went off for our swimming session. =) swim for abt almost 2 hrs? i think so la. me and mei turn black lo. kns. after swimming and bathing. we went to ECP KFC for our early dinner. after eat send mei back home and we went to mummy place.

went back home at 11 plus. but i slp at 1 plus.

1611o9

todae baby send me to work. as usual. but todae things no longer the same. seriously i dunno is i'm thinking too much or wat. but somehow things really prove me this way. i'm tired. i'm lazy to question. and also i'm lost.

changes started. after 3 mths.....

he get irrated by me easily.
he no longer make me feel secure.
his nice is on and off now.

there is alot alot. i really dunno wat to sae. maybe i shouldnt expect so much. i shouldnt keep thinking that things wun change from him.

now i'm totally wrong. and of cos once there is hope there will be disappointment. but i believe i can go through de. =)

i think is time for me to get more time to meet up my gals.

hmmm sometimes thinking through, i think i have serious problem ba. as in, every r/s i have seems to be the same. another partner wun be sweet and nice for long. i guess this is my problem. is time to reflect ba.

to baby,

if happen u got read my blog or post. i hope u dun ask me anything. i jus wanna sae out watever i feel and wan here. i dun wan quarrel, question or faces. thanks for the understanding.

pray hard things will go well. i dun wish to have that surprise. i no longer wanting cos i noe if really have tat surprise, things will get more and more mess from now.

[[How i hope i have a true person in my life with me, to go through everything. i'm tired. Sweetness will nv last. Good things wun last too.]]

back

2009-11-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

back to update! =)

late for work todae. but lucky tat witch haven come in so still counted as not late. haha.

after work baby come fetch me then we went to dunno where(forget the road name) to eat chicken rice. meet up ed there. had dinner slack talk after tat went to MS to meet RP.

walk around there after tat decided to went back home.
nth much todae. feeling quite tired.

seriously i feel veri pointless tat boss sack my ex colleague and hired a new one which make me more busy then before. jus cos she is NEW! so i have to SHUT UP! haiz. jus hope things can go well la. if not in 3 months time i will go..... is time to look for a higher pay. =P

abt r/s, nth much to sae. jus tat sometimes i really feel the gap in us. somehow i dunno how to sae. when baby see this he sure will ask me wat's wrong. i also dunno. jus feel tat there is a gap. feel tat i'm too young to be with u ba. haiz. dun think so much le. jus let nature take the course.

[[Being dote,pamper,care,love and etc by you is really wonderful. ♥]]

yoooooo!!

2009-11-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

i'm back i'm back!!! =)

lack of lots lots of update! and i'm really lazy to update the past le. ps ar. will try blog more often de. =)

jus now have family dinner. through out my life this is the first time. our own family dinner. =)

everything is well. stepmum, ah ma, mum all like baby veri much. even mei mei also.

i'm glad. really glad. saw my baby niece which only 1 month+ gg 2 months. my stepbro de. damn cute lo. haha. having a baby is fun but also tring.

would like to sae sorri to my gf "fang". should meet u up on sun. but end up nv. i'm too broke to go out. will sure meet up on dec ya.

lately i'm moody! haiz. somehow i dunno y. now during at work i dun feel good also. now at work is really work and work. no longer really play le. cos my company hired a new gal which is "brand NEW" to everything in logistics. haiz.

i feel damn pointless lo. sack a old "bird" and hired a new "bird" and it make no different. only abit more work for me. but now. things get better le. i dun really talk to her also. haha.

seriously i dislike being left out. being alone. but somehow, i'm learning to accept it. learning alot of things now.

somehow i really wish everything can go the way i'm thinking.

have start my prac le. already book TP which is on 4th of feb 2010. seems far. but overall still ok la. life getting more and more bored. i dunno y.

jus hope everything can go smooth... and everything will be perfect le.

dunno wat to write or update. will blog again ba.

ciao~~~~

I really pray hard in year 2010 is a great year for me.!

[[I'm missing you.]]

for you

2009-09-28T17:59:00.004+08:00

I'm home. decide back to blog.

baby come over to fetch me. abit shock when see him cos instead of driving van he drive car. haha. pei him to ikea do things then he send me over to tpy first as he see i veri tired cos i fall aslp. =x he wan me faster go meet my ladies then can go back earlier to rest. =) meet up with my ladies. slack at jas's place. the poor gal of mine leg swallon. and we so bad keep laughing and think stupid ways to laugh. haha. stay there till 9 plus then i left to meet mummy for dinner.

after tat left with ash to bus stop take bus. actually tot she taking same bus as me so ask her wait for me. end up she taking another bus. yet she didnt tell me. diaox. anyway really thanks for pei me wait for bus. =) (although at times u really irrated me alot. somehow u got ur good way. but jus dun irrated me! =P)

talk with willie. till i reach home.

jus wanna post sth for my baby boy.:-

I love the way you care and concern abt me.
I love the way you stare at me for so long without any reasons.
I love the way we go rounding and talk under the stars
I love the way you pamper me.
I love the way you treat me like a baby.
I love the way you go crazy with me and laugh hard together.
I love the way you let me disturb and give me the poor poor face.
I love the way you laugh at my silliness.
I love the way you act like a child and keep disturb me.
I love the way you hug me and make me feel so sweet.
I love the way you suddenly sae your heart words to me.
I love the way you telling me you love me so much.
I love the way you tell me you'll be there to support me whenever i nd.
I love the way you kiss me lightly every nite before i went home.
I love the way you react to those rubbish i sae/do to u.
I love the way you sae "bibi" in the sweet voice when i call u.
I love the way you tell me how heart pain u r when i'm in pain.
I love the way you entertain me even though u noe the things i sae is veri nonsense.
I love the way you sae me and act "angry" when i dun listen to u.
I love the way the sweetness in us, I love everything that you done for me.
There is alot more and more i love. somehow i cant write/think of anymore. =)

Though we're not rich, but I'm really contented as long as you're there with me.
With you, nothing else matters anymore. I dont need branded, I dont need diamonds.
All I need is you.

[[With you, i'm always living in a sweet sweet world.]]

=)

2009-09-26T09:13:00.005+08:00

Back to updates! =)

25/o9/o9

wake up early todae as baby didnt drive back ytd. so have to take bus.

after work, baby come over work place to fetch me and we went back home.

play lappy in the room till ah ma done with her cooking and sis finish her tution. sis eat dinner with us. after dinner went back room to play Rose online.

till abt 9 plus we change place to living room cos ah ma wan slp le. abt 10pm step mum ask me go down buy food. so went down with baby and sis. the two big and small monkey keep bully me! humph! jus go down buy food also have fun. LOL.

went back and we eat. but baby only keep playing com. we play com till midnite veri late. actually was thinking go out eat supper de. end up nv cos we feel "fat"! LOL!

doing my damn wireless. i spoil it! LOL! from can use let me make until cannot use at all. trying to fix. but really hard lo. chase baby back at 3 plus gg 4 ba. and baby chase me to bed. LOL.

26/o9/o9

wake up at 8 plus. really damn tired. drag myself to bath and prepare then left the house. baby come over to send me to work. =)

after work baby come over fetch me and we went over to Tanjong pagar plaza. i went to the bank. baby drop me off first then go find parking lot. que for long long time lo. when baby walk in. i laugh!!! cos...........

his shirt kanna BIRD SHIT!!!! WAhahahaha! =x i keep laughing and pass him wet tissue to clean. and baby keep giving me sad and poor face. haha. i jus cant stop laughing.

after i'm done, i keep disturb baby abt the bird poo poo. then he sae the bird stomache. lau sai! LOL! rubbish! hahahaha. after smoke we went to eat chicken rice. and ta bao for mummy. went over to tpy mummy work place.

eat our desert there and slack awhile. talk cork with mummy then back to mummy house.

we take our noon nap. wake up at 7 plus. tat silly boy sae veri hungry. wanna eat westen food at blk 53. so we went over there to eat. after tat back to mummy place. suddenly hz call ask for SOS. so i rushed down.

haiz. dunno wat to sae. tat idiot create sth once again. jus dunno when he can noe how to think. jus hope everything will be fine ba. =)

after tua baby come over fetch me back home to bath. then we slack awhile and went to tua there again to eat. after tat mustafa. brought things le. then talk awhile then baby send me home. is already morning 4 plus 5 le. tired!

27/o9/o9

wake up by call in the morning. all thanks to ash hor. lol. end up i also go back to slp. till 4 plus then wake up. once wake up. ah ma ask me ask baby come over eat. so end up baby come over. had dinner. play com. and we left home at 8 plus. went to causeway point for movie. watch 'the ugly truth' is not a bad show. quite nice. =)

after movie we went to yishun damp if not wrong. talk there till 1 plus 2 like tat. then we went back home. while gg home. we have some unhappy things happen. due to tua. haiz. anyway things already resolve. =)

slp at 4 plus again.

28/o9/o9

wake up at 8 plus. drag myself to toilet again. bath and prepare. jus nice baby reach le. went down and we went to buy mac breakfast and head to my work place. before i alight he pass me things. when i reach office i open up and see. is 2 cute key chain. i will take foto when i free. is couple de.

noon time baby come over to bring me go harbour front there eat. pass him the boi boi keychain. and i keep another one. after lunch, baby send me back at 2 then left to do his things le.

actually not meeting him tonite le. cos he got things to do. but dunno y he sae he coming to fetch me down to tpy as i meeting my darlings. =) so sweet of him.

got to leave office le. baby reaching already. =) will blog again.

[[Thanks for proving me how important i m to you and how much u love me.]]

hihi

2009-09-24T22:06:00.004+08:00

hi all! i'm back to update le. in case lack of updates again. keke. =)

22/o9/o9

Baby send me to work. reach work place there pei baby to eat breakfast then went up to work and baby left for his work too.

lunch time baby come down to my work place to pick me and we went to harbour front for lunch. after lunch baby send me back. =)

after work took train down to potong pasir to meet baby. waited awhile for him as he come out from office. went to jalan bersa there for dinner then back to office slack.

baby send me home at 1 plus if not wrong.

23/o9/o9

As usual baby send me to work. didnt eat breakfast with him as i'm late for work le. poor baby eat alone.

after work baby come and fetch me then we went to bugis as baby wanna take his lappy. after take lappy le we went to sim lim tower there eat dinner and back to office till 12 plus went back home.

nth much happen todae. as usual baby come send me to work. and eat breakfast alone. after work meet baby and thomas at city hall. went to sell my old lappy which is totally spoil. only sell $70. but better then nth la. after tat we went to funan to walk walk. till abt 8 plus we take train back home. =)

oh ya. todae baby pass me a bottle of oil. is for tummy de. is two oil mix together de. the silly baby of mine really take good care of me. i'm really veri thankful baby!

to baby:

Although now our life everydae seems the same. but simple is sweet ya. i hope u dun always stress abt all ur things. i noe work is veri stress. and times i'm unreasonable. but really glad u always coax me. keke. =p really like the time being with u. jus a simple things we can laugh like hell. i'll always rmb those words u teach de hor. "old turtle" "Old hen""xiao hei" & "xiao bai" Wahahaha. i like the "xiao bai" lo. hahaha. when u see this u sure will laugh again. haha. baby, jus wanna let u noe. dun worri tat i will go back to tat jerk. is a past. i'm not gg to look backwards. the sweetness in u really make me fall for u more. =) -Love- missing you le. =p

it has been a long time didnt blog and smile. haha. =) i'm looking forward to oct! =)

is time for me to slp le. if not tml my baby gg to nag at me again le. hee.

[[你让我觉得好快乐!]]

update

2009-09-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm back! and decide not to update any past post le. cos is really too long. jus will blog from todae on ba.

reach home in the morning. slp till 10 plus being wake up by my step mum to help her check air ticket. after tat fall aslp till 4 plus then wake up. call monster then tell him i'm awake. he is at jurong doing his things. so he ask me go bath and prepare. it take abt 45mins to come amk ma. end up i fall aslp till 530. and i saw monster msg saying tat he reach le which the msg send at 455pm. diaox. jump up of bed and faster go bath and prepare. went down and saw monster sitting at house downstair instead of sitting in the van. cos is raining so he took umbrella to downstair wait for me.

we went to yishun for dinner and walk around. after tat we went to the new shopping mall. city plaza mall. if not wrong. shop around and went to metro, baby brought a FX sling bag which is 10% discount. after tat we went to mustafa walk walk.

went back to office to take lappy. baby went up but i didnt. due to some reason.

i start dun feel good as the time running. i jus dunno how to sae. i jus dunno. anyway i dun wish to talk abt it. after baby come down. he send me back.

after a smoke then come back le.

totally not in mood on anything. i think gg slp soon. i'm really moodless now.

to baby,

i'm sorri to seems moodless. i noe i suppose to talk it out. but sorri i dun wan to spoil your mood or make things unhappy. i dunno how to sae also. u have tell me lots of times. u have explain also. but somehow. i jus cannot stop the wild thinking i have. sorri is the only things i can sae. if things is on u. i think u will noe how i feel. i'll be alright soon.

[[I dunno wat to do. jus hope everything can change.]]

update.

2009-09-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

Sorri readers. i'm really busy till i have no time to blog. =p i will come back with all my updates ya. =)

really have lots of things to update.

currently i'm busy with my work, part time job, settling up blogshop and pei my baby monster.

everydae sleep only at 3 plus and wake up 7 plus the next dae. damn tired.

lost my fon recently but found back le. but the old num which i use 9382**** de num is no longer in use le. frenz do leave me msg at friendster/FB/email/msn for my contact ya.

will be back for updates.

jus some words for my baby monster.

Thanks baby for everything you have done for me. everything u did jus wan me to be happy and always wan me to smile. there is once communtication breakdown. and we both feel damn damn dun like the feel. anyway we have gone through le. i'm sorri i dun dare to think so much abt the future. we have talk abt it and i hope u understand. things is getting better le. hmmm somehow, i'm really glad tat we can talk things out when there is things goes wrong and u prove me tat how much u love and care abt me. u will jus do stupid things jus wanna see my smile.

sorri tat i've thrown attitude and unreasonable things at u. u nv fail to pamper me. even a simple things u make me feel sweet. thanks for the surprise you have gave me on our 1st month. times really fly fast. we gg 2nd mths soon.

baby, i'm a person will get jealous easily de. even u tell me tat how impossible btw u and her. alot of things. i jus dunno how to sae. i now only wan to stay on this happy and sweet life.

you nv fail to be by myside. you nv fail to dote me. as the daes pass your sweetness make me falling more for u. =)

i think will blog again as my eyes gg close le. i cant think of wat to post already.

nite nite.

lastly, baby thanks for stepping into my life. you bring my world into colourful heaven. love you! muack!

[[Missing you every secs, mins, hours, daes. the silly things you did really brigthen up my dae and make me fall more. -hugs-]]

finally i'm back

2009-08-20T13:52:00.003+08:00

hello~~~~ miss my blogging??? haha. finally i'm here to update. has been really veri busy. i will try update everything i rmb. it will be a long long update. =)

o5/o8/o9

meet up with monster at PS. walk around to see his things. after he brought we went to buy my slipper. after tat went to carrefour to see things. thinking wat to have for dinner. end up we went to suntec.

went to soup restaurant to have our dinner. we order 1 soup, chicken and veg. (if i dun rmb wrongly) it cost $60+. after dinner we went to fountain there sit and talk. after tat monster send me home and went to meet mr yeah yeah yeah. keke.

o6/o8/o9

went to jan's place after work. stay there till 1 plus then took cab back.

o7/o8/o9

monster came to fetch me from work. then we went to henderson there eat. and back to his office slack. actually i should be gg to jas there de. but end up nv. monster should meet mr yeah yeah yeah. but end up also nv. we went to mustafa walk walk. then went back home.

o8/o8/o9

meet up with monster after work. went to slack around. after tat at nite i went down to jiu tian and he went clubbing. stay at jiu tian till 11 plus ba then went over to jan's place as sth happen there. after tat should go impact with monster for drink but nv cos i wanna slp le.

took cab to meet up with monster. fall aslp at 3 plus i think.

o9/o8/o9

went to office to do some of my paper work. then we went to beach road there eat. then i rush back home change and down to jiu tian again. due to fatty have to jump. so go there lo.

after at abt 6 plus fatty went back tpy with me as we nd to go buy tua things. slack at mummy house awhile then we went off to buy the things. then took cab send fatty home then i went to jan's place.

slp over there till morning 8 then rush back home.

1o/o8/o9

bath and change then fatty come over to fetch me then went down to tua. todae is to 请炉 back. finish everything at abt 2 plus in the noon then we went to veg restaurant to eat. and back to the tentage to up everything up.

do till midnite 3 plus then we went back.

11/o8/o9

went to work. damn tired. after work took cab send sha to mrt station then went to meet up with baby. we went to tpy walk walk and eat bk for dinner. after tat we took cab and sent baby back to office then i go down to tua.

do abit things till quite late then go back home.

12/o8/o9

wake up at 11 plus. meet baby for lunch at potong pasir. after tat took cab and send baby to sembawang for his hair cut. then i went to cck to pick up the pants for fatty and down to jan's place to take my things.

ask jan to wait for me as i veri fast one end up she went to do her things first. so i went to cut hair also lo.

sit at coffee shop and wait till 3 plus then she come. talk to her awhile then take cab to tua. omg lo. todae whole dae cab fare have spend 50+. diaox.

stupid willie wan keng mc end up keng till admitted into the hospital. kns.

at nite. an tua. after tat went back home at 3 plus if not wrong.

13/o8/o9

fatty took cab and fetch me then went down to tua at 10 plus i think. do things and start invite god at 12 plus. todae is yew kampong. the floor damn bloody hot la. every thing end at 3 plus. after tat take some rest and i went to swimming complex to bath. =)

nite time is eat dinner. every thing end at 11 plus. sit at tua awhile and i'm veri tired so i went back first.

14/o8/o9

baby come to pick me up at my place. went to eat breakfast at macpherson there. after tat send me to tua.

reach tua at 9 plus. abt 11 plus went to 安炉. then back to tua le. fatty and mouse doing the weapon things. i jus sit there lo. at evening time. i went to bath. after tat preparing for nite things le.

ash call me. she sae. some idiot wan to come disturd me. so i tell her. jus come lo. i nv step her she wan come step me then come la. kns.

nite program started. and i saw her. didnt even bother to talk to her. till everything end we sit there. and i overheard wat she sae to her frenz. so BHB la. asking her frenz she pretty or i pretty. kns. i told fatty they all wat i heard. all jus laugh and laugh and sae she veri bhb lo. stupid la. seriously there is nth tat we can compare lo. i'm not married and i dun have kids. but so sad to sae u have married and divorce and have a child. so wat to compare??? bo liao la.

stay at tua till quite late cos nd to keep abit things. feel veri angry due to baby. haiz. i hate he go drink lo. nvm dun wanna mention le.

15/o8/o9

went down to tua in the morning. fatty come fetch me then we go fetch willie. went to tua prepare things and then head to amk for the 安炉. i went back home to take my lappy. after tat went back to tua rest awhile and online awhile. till 3 plus send the god. start to keep things.

do till 8 plus 9 everything at outside i've clear finish. fatty at tua pack the cupboard. end up i decide to leave first. baby come over to pick me up and send me home to bath first. after tat we went to yishun to have our late dinner after tat actually wan to go walk walk end up we decide to go cathy to watch movie. but there is no parking. so we went to ps to watch. reach there at 12 plus i think. and the movie only start at 140am. so we drive around then back to cinema. we watch 吓到笑. to me it not really nice la. still ok only. if really wan to rate i will only give 5/10. after movie actually gg back to put the van at office then take cab home de. but end up i fall aslp so baby jus drive me back.

16/o8/o9

wake up late. faster rush down to tua. reach at 10 plus which actually nd to reach at 10. todae is 安坛. i tot will end early. but i forget tat we nd to send the pot and weapon back to jiu tian. end up cannot meet baby and he go to do his tattoo alone. feel quite bad la. but i really got no choice.

back at tua at 4 plus i think. at there do abit things and wait for papa. end up willie being scold. at abt 8 plus 9 like tat baby come to pick me up and we went to jan's place. pass her the oil and have some finger food then we went off. baby is not really happy as i have been busy for the whole week. but after tat he ok le. we went to changi airport to eat sweason.(spell this way?) and walk walk awhile then back home.

17/o8/o9

baby come to pick me up and send me to work in the morning. the whole dae at office i feel so sleepy lo. baby and i decide to go for movie. so i book ticket online. watch the hangover at 920pm. after work take bus to vivo to meet up with baby. actually gg to have jap for dinner. but end up baby sae he carving for seafood so end up we went to no signboard for our dinner. we order crab,prawn,veg and desert. overall cost $160.

after dinner is already 9pm le. after smoke we went to collect ticket and then we went to muee. i brought a coin purse there. went for smoke again then we went for our show. i can sae is a nice show. veri funny lo. =) rated 9/10.

after movie we took cab back.

18/o8/o9

after work baby come and pick me up. and we went to orchard ION to walk walk. as baby sae alot of ppl sae there veri nice but he havent go before. so we went lo. after tat we went eat fishhead steamboat. then went to mustafa walk walk. baby brought me my favourite perfume-miracle which cost him $70+. and i brought my toner and facial wash which total cost baby $90+. =x after tat back to office and slack as baby meeting mr yeah yeah yeah later. so i pei him first lo. we play foto hunt and have good fun. after tat we have some heart to heart talk. dunno how come mr yeah yeah yeah nv meet him le. so we talk till 3 plus i think. then baby send me back.

19/o8/o9

baby pick me up from work and send me to work again. todae i dun feel tired lo. i siao liao. till abt 4 plus 5 then start to feel slpy. haha. after work took train to potong pasir there to meet up with baby. then we went to geylang there to eat dinner. after tat went back office as he nd do some invoice. after tat 8 plus 9 like tat send me down to tua.

praying for 7th month todae. prepare things and then start to pray at 11 plus. we pray chu 1 first. so have to wait. went to coffee shop have some drinks then back to burn the paper. and start to pray 7th month. while waiting to burn the paper. i fall aslp. diaox. i really too tired le. after burn liao sit down awhile and left at 2am. reach home bath then talk on fon with baby awhile and slp le.

2o/o8/o9

todae can't wake up. dunno y. too tired. so took half dae and when back to slp. end up. i still cannot wake up. so took whole dae. jus book ticket online. gg to watch up. at great world later. at 5pm. now is already 330pm and i'm still blogging. lol. nd to go bath and then go to potong pasir to meet baby le. will try to update often.

finally finish updating le. aiyo. really will die to recall things lo.

[[after so long, finally i've walk out. thanks baby for coming into my life. jus hope everything can turn out better. thanks baby monster for everything! =)]]

update. 30-07 to 04/08

2009-08-04T14:18:00.009+08:00

Back to update! :)

3o/o7/o9

After work went to meet monster. he come to mrt station fetch me then back to office. pei him work till 9 plus then we left to jalan bersa. eat steamboat. :)

monster so sweet. keep help me take food and ownself sae 拔虾壳 for me. hee. talk and eat till 10 plus??? dun rmb. then we decide to walk to mustafa for a walk.

brought a book for my sis and a kids book for niece. monster brought some office stationary. after tat we went back home le.

31/o7/o9

After work went to this fashion with sha and joey. after tat took train to mustafa. we should alight at farrer park(spell this way?) but end up sha ask me to alight at little india. so got to walk a big big way. :(

Find our way to there. went to buy BVL perfume for monster. ;P after buying then i took train to potong pasir. monster come over to fetch me there. went to find place to eat. forget where le. give monster the perfume and he is so happy lo. keke. my hard work worth la. ;)

went to eat dinner. we only left for abt 20 mins? and noe wat. kanna summon. diaox. $50 somemore. so ex la. after tat we went to petrol station buy cig then wanna head back to his office. then suddenly he sae nd to go bank. so we went to geylang there de branch. after tat went to buy my top up card. then pei him go pay bill and after tat monster send me to 10 floor to meet up with my gals.

my 10 floor and monster 10 floor is different. lol. end up ask ash and then got the address and then monster send me over and went back to office after tat.

chat with my gals at staircase stay there till 11 plus ba then left the place and back to amk. went back home bath and actually gg over jan place one. due to some reason nv. shouldnt mention anymore.

o1/o8/o9

Decide to went to malaysia for awhile as i wanna buy bag and my " 脚链". meet up with my gals at 1130am at amk cental. went to buy bubble tea and change money then took train to woodlands.

cut short everything. we reach jb we went to eat first as our dear future son is hungry. lol. went to eat marrybrown. ;) nice nice. keke.

after eat. went to smoke then start our "shopping". i have brought 2 t-shirt(1 same with jas 1 same with ash),1 so call jacket, a sunglass for jan, a milk bottle fan, a hello kitty contact lens box for noda jie and my 脚链. didnt got the things i wan. lol. for jas she have brought 1 tshirt, 1 3/4 pants, 1 short pants, 2 key chain(1 is milk bottle another one is tutu), a milk bottle fan(same as me), 3 big big lollipop. i think tat all ba. ash brought 1 t-shirt, a couple necklace, a xiang xiang things which like joss stick de, 4 chewing gums and dunno wat.

after shopping the time is abt gg 5pm le. we went for a last smoke then back to sin le. cos at nite i got to go tua then jas got to attend dinner.

when we reach sin on the way back to our place some unhappy happen. i dun wish to mention anymore.

Some foto to share.

My dar. on the way to woodlands.

snap.

Walking out of JB custom.

Marrybrown.

The meals.

It cost only RM37.05!!!

Marrybrown family restaurant. ;)

The cute cute squirrel. keke.

Ash burger, mine.

Jas Mushroom chicken.

Ash cutting the chicken for our dear jas "auntie" LOL! :x

While waiting for ash at custom.

The milk bottle baby fan.

The hello kitty contact lens box.

jus wanna sae. if you wan cos of her u change in us. then please. dun sae till tat u always cos of us quarrel with her. it seems u really treasure us hor. but sorri lo. u r not. u become so selfish. u nv noe wat is wrong in u. so be it. happily gg on ur life. but please i wun wan a frenz like tat. thanks.

back to post. went back home bath and then meet up with fatty then go down to tua. went to eat and then suddenly quarrel again with someone over the fon. damn damn shit!!! i hate the bloodly way she talk this things. so wat tat jas is broke. must u sae till like tat. now i noe sth. money can actually see someone real FACE. i will nv forget wat you sae. jus live happily with ur "wife" and dun come to me crying. i wun bother. enough of saying.

after ban gong we sit down there do some tua big dae things then left at 1 plus if not wrong. fatty send me back then i go bath and withdrawal money then take cab to jan's place le. i tot reach there, they wun be there le. but they still there. reach le went to change then play with boiboi. he miss me lei. u noe u noe??? keke... so happy. :) after not long they leave jan place le.

talk with jan and watch tv then we order mac to eat. after eat i fall aslp. keke.

o2/o8/o9

wake up at 11 plus. wash up and bring boi boi down for shitting and we went for breakfast. after breakfast we went to herbel shop. buy some tonic. as i'm not feeling good. went back jan house slack after tat. suppose to meet fatty one. but end up i drag here and there till 8 plus then i took cab back to amk find him.

sit at xi lian gong, they talk and talk abt sin tua things. i went to talk on fon with monster. :) after tat till 11 plus we went off. then we went to mac. eat mac again. o.O" after tat we went to smoke then go back le.

o3/o8/o9

ytd after work suppose to meet up with fatty's god ma at yew tee de. nd to pass her cloths for fatty pants. but end up she sae she will call me. cos she gg work now. so end up decide to go tpy lo. went to tpy walk walk then go find mummy. went back to mummy place slack. todae had some quarrel with fatty. finally after so long. i sae him. so mani things lo. at least i feel really really good after saying. ;P

till 10 plus veri hungry then went down buy some soup back home to eat. 11 plus mummy came back and we talk. talk and play till 12 plus then i went back.

chat with monster till i was abt to reach home then hang up. went back bath and start chat with monster again. till abt gg to 2am ask him go slp then i continue watch my tv. haha.

till abt 3am plus then went to slp.

o4/o8/o9

morning 7 plus monster wake me up. but after tat i fall back to slp again. till abt 8.35am like tat. jump up of bed and faster go prepare.

waste money cab to work. :( busy for the whole dae. but not as busy as ytd la. so still ok. next week gg on leave cos of tua big dae. hope everything gg to be fine this year.

after work nd to go seragoon to meet up chirstine to take some things which i brought online. after tat gg down to 453 pass them then go to meet monster if he have nth on.

tml will be meeting monster to ps as he wan to buy his 手链 and i wan to buy my flat/slipper.

eyes getting more and more tired le. think should go to toilet and smoke then back to work le. this week must chiong all the way cos next week schedule full since 10/08. >.<"

[[Another 5 daes left.~~ I'm falling more and more for you. missing you always Baby. :p]]

update

2009-07-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

Before the spider crawl my whole blog i'm back to clear the "spider web! LOL.

26/o7/o9

wake up at 10 plus by fatty. went to prepare and then meet him and aloy at 453 market. After tat meet up with ah ping as he is driving us there. reach there at abt 11 plus and there is damn lots of ppl lo.

saw alot of ppl there. aloy,fatty and ah ping they went up to the stage where those ki tong poke satay de. i didnt go up cos i'm a gal ma scare the ppl there dun like. so i alone at downstair see lo. call and msg fion then end up she sae she not coming down. kns. end up i call mike as he sure will go down cos his shi guan is there. when he reach go look for him then we talk for awhile.

fatty noe i angry liao as i sae him. cos they throw me alone lo. kns. end up when mostly all ki tong poke finish liao then i go up. haha.

they leave the tentage at 1 plus. and we follow them yew keng lo. haha. cos we got car ma. we will follow cos we wanna see the dian zhi san tai zhi. so cool la. lol.

total 6 places. last location is bedok. after tat we went back defu lane near by and eat then go back to the tentage. wait for quite awhile then they come back.

at there till all finish le then we leave.

27/o7/o9

after work went back home to bath then after tat go over fatty house. before go there went to buy some finger food for him and bubble tea for him and sis.

at there do some tua things then talk with sis till 12 plus then fatty insist to send me go take cab.

28/o7/o9

after work went back home bath and then meet up with fatty at 453. went to had our dinner then take cab over to jiu tian. talk abt tua big dae and talk cork there. till 12 plus the ppl there send us back amk. sit at coffee shop with them till 1 plus then went home.

29/o7/o9

after work went home bath and come online till fatty ok le then meet him at 5 head. went to nite market to walk walk.

fatty brought a few foods for me eat after tat he ask me take cab home but i dun wan. so end up i walk home. haha. :)

tml might be gg down to play or maybe gg meet monster have dinner. mostly tml fatty will not meet me ba. already continously for 4 daes le. lol.

will update again le. as i'm veri slpy. nd to slp le. tml have to work. hope my pay faster come! haiz. damn broke la.

[[i'm contented with wat i have now. but still i hope he will treat me more sweet and better.]]

update.

2009-07-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

back to update.

21/o7/o9

went back home after work. didnt go anyway as i'm waiting for fatty to off work to go jiu tian. but due to he work too late so nv go.

22/o7/o9

suppose to meet monster. but end up nv due to he have last min meeting. so after work went to meet fion at her house there. then with mike go to his tua. after tat at abt 10 plus 11 i took bus 132 back to amk.

23/o7/o9

after work went to jan place. play with boi boi till abt 11 plus then went back home.

24/o7/o9

after work went to amk central to meet monster. have a drink and talk till 7 plus then he left to meet his frenz and i went back home to get prepare. went out at 9 plus to meet jove at town. went to a thai pub. but forget the name le. they open brandy. but at abot almost 11 i nearly dead. lol. cos playing game then i keep lost. end up i vomitted. so paiseh lo. but after vomitted i feel veri comfortable lo. haha. contiune to drink after tat. total there is 6 of us. me, shawn, jove, jasper, jessie and her gf. keke.

keep taking foto like free la. but foto not with me. is with shawn. have to wait till he upload. long time didnt have fun le. haha. jessie keep sae tat i and jove veri "pei". she feel weird to see tat we not together le. i was so diaox lo. then i tell her. we break up almost 2 years plus le lei. haha. they keep saying we should be together de. lol. kns. i think she drunk le la. haha.

left the place at 1 plus. actually gg to sabai but cos jessie cannot le so went back. then jove and jasper sae veri hungry wan go eat. so we went to hk cafe to eat. shawn left home as she having headache.

chat at hk cafe. suddenly monster call. he sae wan me go down find him. he is almost drunk la. as i can heard from his voice. so end up take 10 dollar from jove then i took cab down to clark quey to find him. i was having bad bad headache liao lo. but no choice la. worry. :P

when i reach and saw him, indeed he is almost drunk. whatever my qus. his ans will end with cos he love me. >.<" so end up i dun wish to ask him liao. went back to lunar. open a bottle again.

end up didnt went home and went to work after tat.

25/o7/o9

after work almost dead. damn tired lo. jove wan to take cab back. so i shared. reach home downstair went to ta bao then went back home eat. after eat my eyes already close lo. so i went to bed and slp.

wake up at 7 plus. being attitude by fatty. asshole! humph. he is angry cos he keep find me then i no reply nor pick up his call. haha. after my explain i go bath. and meet up with him at 500+ for dinner.

talk and dinner le went to shop and save to walk walk. then went back home le.

now here updating my blog. i realise tat my blog song have so mani ppl have the same lo. abit irrated by it. so i have change.

will update again. as tml have to wake up early. tml gg to defu lane there de big dae. they having a grand yew keng. 40 over + ki tong. ;) alot of ppl will be there. so far i noe that monster and his frenz gg, fion and mike gg. haha. sure got lots of ppl i'll see at there. haha.

got to go and rest soon. will be back. :)

[[我们之间的问题是我不相信你. 敏感又多心怕你变了心. 因为爱你害怕失去你. 我真的好想与你不分离. 我属于你. 这份爱你要相信. 也许上天注定. 不要失去才珍惜. Baby, i'm missing you lots.]]

sad

2009-07-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

jus being random..........

i'm slowly walking out from the circle which i should leave long ago.

but............

i'm falling into a place where i shouldnt........

OMG! wat the hell happen to my heart or feel?

maybe i shouldnt think of r/s anymore. jus let everything go itself ba.

i'm tired of thinking.

frenz/reader anyone jus jio me out if can. if not i will be gg back home everydae!

i hate those guessing game. and i hate r/s. how i wish i got the power to noe wat other think.

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thanks for the short memories. i do enjoy and feel really happy. :)

i think things should back to the first track ba.

[[Jus hate being emo or lonely!]]

update

2009-07-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

19/o7/o9

hang over this morning. full of chivas smell lo. having headache also. kns. went to bath then meet up with shindy as we sharing cab to work. stupid me go msg joey sae i will late. end up joey didnt work and is like i'm jus telling her for nth.

wat ever things i do seems so slow. play game till 11 plus then start do my work. leave office at 12.45pm like tat.

meet up fion to temple. went over pray. after pray we went to rangoon road as mike nd to go lion dance. fion and i thinking where to go. end up we took cab to find mike. kns. talk and pei fion till 4 plus then i left to jan place. waited for jan to get prepare as we gg to vivo to get boi boi things. but end up jan veri slow lo. till abt 6 plus then ok. we went to downstair eat our dinner then took cab to vivo.

choosing boi boi things. brought alot alot of things for him. keke. had a litle quarrel with fatty. cos he wan to meet me at 730pm to take bus to tua. but i cannot as i still at vivo. so i told him to wait. end up he got angry. and he went down himself.

jan noe i rushing time so end up she faster finish buying all the stuff then we left. went back to jan place to get my things and play awhile with boi boi then rush back home le.

change and down to tua. reach at 9 plus. fatty face damn black la. but didnt care much.

start our meeting and it end around 11 plus. after tat at there watch yew keng cd. and finish watching at 3 plus lo. after tat play with webcam. stupid willie damn funny la. make me laugh and laugh. video too big cannot upload.went to eat dian xin at 4 plus then after tat went back home to slp.

2o/o7/o9

wake up at 5 plus. fatty sae wan meet me. so i went to prepare. end up he tell me ah ho ask him do things so will meet me at 7 plus. then i tell him since like tat dun meet lo. but he wan to meet. so i sae ok. wait till 7plus almost 8. call him ask him he ok le ma. and he still haven lo. kns. angry la. then i tell him dun meet liao le. get really angry and piss of in him lo. actually wanna go over jan place de lo. forget it.

online chatting with monster and watching online show. thinking of gg out but no where. monster actually wanna meet me as i haven eat dinner but i dun wan. cos is really troublesome to come all the way here jus to pei me eat. and he is tired also.

at abt 9 plus. fatty msg me. finally he ok liao. so went down to meet him. plus i wan drink bubble tea. so i go down lo. but end up shop close liao. so didnt buy. talk with dad's frenz at coffee shop while waiting for fatty. those uncle keep saeing i slim down liao. now pretty le. diaox. so paiseh lo. how i wish i really slim down alot alot. haha. slowly i will. keke.

10 plus then fatty reach. saw ben and baobei also. but didnt talk. pei him eat.after tat he took cab home and i come home.

nothing much to blog le. will blog again tml.

Finally i have step out of the circle. but now i'm stuck. i dunno wat i should do. :(

[[How i noe wat i should do now. haiz. i'm missing you.]]

update update

2009-07-19T23:30:00.007+08:00

Finally back to update.

15/o7/o9

after work meet up with my cousin. went to walk walk at tp there after tat took train back to her place. brought bubble tea then back to her house. play with cutie joel. he is trying to crawl but instead of crawing infront he crawl behind. lol. play with baby boi till he fall aslp then let cousin place at 11 plus.

16/o6/09

While walking to mac to buy breakfast for shindy. i saw this cute kitten

veri small size. and keep moaning. veri poor thing. so end up i went to econ. and i brought this

is for kitten btw 1-12 months. keke.

the kitten eat veri fast. and can see veri hungry. so poor thing lo. cant bear to leave it there. but got no choice i have to. so i left to buy mac after tat. dun rmb after work go where le.

17/o7/o9

after work went back home to get myself prepare then meet fatty. went to tpy to eat and talk till 11 plus if not wrong. feel bad as jan is waiting for me. but cannot sae i meet fatty due to some reason. after tat i went to jan place. staying over there. found jan a doggy which name boi boi. he is damn damn cute!!!! play with boi boi and watch tv till morning 5 plus then slp lo.

boi boi!

he is waiting for his old owner. :(

18/o7/o9

late for work. end up have some urge with AM. damn angry la. forget it shouldnt mention anymore. after work went to jan place. meet jas at control station then walk over. bath and prepare. waited for jan to bath and ash and eda come over. after everyone ok liao we left to interchange. actually is eating at woodlands de. but end up nv cos eda gastic pain. so decide eat at clementi. then jas wan transfer money so we went to interchange and eat.

actually should go to ting's tua de. as she doing big dae at home. but ar. that stupid pig change num nv sae. so end up nv go up le. walk to interchange wan to take bus to town as gg ktv pub. meeting monster there. but end up change venue. monster is abit angry due to call me but i nv pick up. sorri monster. i didnt heard my fon ring. monster changing the venue to i pub which located at bukit timah. so we went to ask got wat bus to there. end up ash sae eda gastic pain so they went off first.

me, jan and jas went to took bus down to bukit timah. waited for monster to reach then we went in. sing, talk and play there. jas left first due to she dun wan take midnite cab and she is tired. at abt 1 plus we leave i pub. jan left also as she dun wan to go out with us as she sae monster seems to be weird with her around. lol.

after jan left, we took cab down to clark quey. went to lunar. meet up with edmund at there. monster open a bottle of chivas. had quite lots of fun there. till abt 4 plus i'm really tired and fall aslp. lol. then monster they all send me back. stupid monster already half drunk lo. diaox.reach home went to clean up myself then went to bed le.

[[I think i'm falling for u. but i dunno should i or not. i'm scare. haiz.]]

sleepy

2009-07-18T11:38:00.004+08:00

feel damn damn sleepy rite now. due to ytd drink too much. dun really have the mood and time to update. jus wanna blog sth to someone.

I'm sure when u see this u noe it is for u.

i have jus saw ur blog le. wat happen wor? everything got its way. anything can jus call me. seriously i dunno wat to do to make us back like we use to be. i think nv will ba. haiz. now the two of us is keep viewing each other blog to update each other. haiz. even we saw each other also nv talk.

anyway i jus hope things at ur end will be fine. take care always.

2009-07-18T11:15:00.003+08:00

《珍惜現在》

最近我的一位弟兄剛剛離婚，常常跑到我家來聊天訴苦。這位弟兄算是大家羡慕的成功人士吧，他在華爾街任分析師，年薪在 $300，000左右，開輛 BMW。我和他是大學同學，又都住在NewJersey，現在已是無話不說。

說來慚愧，我的年薪只有$70，000，還有在家帶兩個小孩和不工作的老婆，買房子是根本不用想了，也總被一些同學認為沒出息。

本來老婆和我是準備幫助這位弟兄和他老婆和好的，但是我知道他們離婚的原因後，也覺得無話可說了。

我一向羡慕這弟兄，那麼有追求，事業那麼成功，看我這土老冒，安逸享樂，這輩子算浪費了。可是在我知道這弟兄離婚的原因後，開始對生活有了新的認識。

這弟兄和老婆是大學同學，青梅竹馬，羨煞人。來美國後，兩人都開始為學習生活努力，並且畢業後都找到好工作，更羨煞人。

工作兩年後，弟兄被哥大錄取去讀 MBA，畢業後又到華爾街工作，而我這時剛在一個學校找到職位，老婆也生了個兒子，羡慕死人家了。可是不要只是看到這弟兄光鮮的外表，他的婚姻卻正在經歷痛苦。

剛開始兩人一起工作時，他老婆問要不要小孩，他說還有好多事沒有做完，沒有精力。在念 MBA時，每天早出晚歸，連老婆也忽略了，老婆幾次希望能親密一下，他都已經睡著了。

在華爾街工作後，老婆認為終於可以喘口氣了，卻不想他更是每天早出晚歸，因為工作壓力比念MBA還大。

又過了兩年，我都又有個女兒了，他的薪水加獎金也幾乎是我薪水的 3倍了，老婆卻要和他離婚了。女人也有壓力的，那就是生小孩，她的年齡已經太大，不生就晚了；而他卻天天忙工作，回到家不是太晚就是太累，他們大概每年有一兩次就不錯。

最近，他發現他自己陽萎了，試了幾次都不行。老婆一氣之下和他離婚了- 不是因為他陽萎，而是因為他不愛她。

聽完他的訴苦，我無話可說。一直被大家羡慕的夫妻生活竟是這樣過的， BMW裝的竟全是痛苦。錢，錢，錢，現在的人為什麼就好像是鑽到了錢坑，忽略了其他任何的一切。錢是身外之物，生不帶來，死不帶走，賺那麼多卻沒有機會花豈不是很悲哀。

我相信現在每年賺$300，000的他，寧可花$230，000每年來買我的生活，我的老婆和小孩，可是為什麼非要到太晚才覺悟呢？他現在正在找一個壓力小薪水低的工作，可是談何容易。除了其他華爾街公司要他做類似的職位外，幾乎沒有其他公司願意出那麼高價來聘用他。他薪水的一半對於一般的公司都太高了。他開玩笑說是走上了不歸路。

生活的真正意義是你在死前回過頭來問自己是不是活的很快樂，是不是對得起家人，而不是一輩子賺了多少錢。我們的小孩也根本不在乎他們是不是有高級玩具，而是有沒有爸爸陪他們玩最廉價的LEGO。

有人說如果不趁年輕時賺錢將來怎麼辦。人不能活在將來，因為你怎麼知道你有將來？你甚至怎麼知道你有明天？未來？還有將來的將來，什麼時候是你的今天？錢是永遠也賺不完的。但是你一定確定你有現在，你可以把現在活好。而且有沒有出息並不是用錢來衡量的。

對於我來說，我的出息是可以每天早早回到家陪家人吃飯和陪小孩玩。我有出息。剛剛收到一份 EMAIL故事和大家分享：多年前我跟悉尼的一位同學談話。那時他太太剛去世不久，他告訴我說，他在整理他太太的東西的時候，發現了一條絲質的圍巾，那是他們去紐約旅遊時，在一家名牌店買的，那是一條雅致、漂亮的名牌圍巾，高昂的價格標籤還掛在上面，他太太一直捨不得用，她想等一個特殊的日子才用。

講到這，他停住了，我也沒接話，好一會後他說："再也不要把好東西留到特別的日子才用，你活著的每一天都是特別的日子!"

以後，每當我想起這幾句話時，我常會把手邊的雜事放下，找一本小說，打開音響，躺在沙發上，抓住一些自己的時間。我會從落地窗欣賞淡水河的景色，不去管玻璃上的灰塵，我會拉著太太到外面去吃飯，不管家裡的菜飯該怎麼處理。

生活應當是我們珍惜的一種經驗，而不是要捱過去的日子。我曾經將這段談話與一位女士分享，後來見面時，她告訴我她現在已不像從前那樣，把美麗的磁具放在酒櫃了。以前她也以為要留待特別的日子才拿出來用，後來發現那一天從未到來。"將來"，"總有一天"已經不存在她的字典了。如果有什麼值得高興的事，有什麼得意的事，她現在就要聽到，就要看到。

我們常想跟老朋友聚一聚，但總是說"找機會"。我們常想擁抱一下已經長大的小孩，但總是等適當的時機。我們常想寫封信給另外一半，表達一下濃郁的情意，或甚至想讓他知道你很佩服他，但總是告訴自己不急。

其實每天早上我們睜開眼睛時，都要告訴自己這是特別的一天。每一天，每一分鐘都是那麼可貴。有人說：你該盡情的跳舞，好象沒有人在看你一樣。你該盡情的愛人，好象從來不會受傷害一樣。我也要盡情的跳舞，盡情的愛。

看完這篇短文後，可以馬上起身去擦桌子，或洗碗；可以把報紙放一邊，閉起眼睛沉思一會；也可以把這篇短文剪下來，傳真給很多朋友。當然，我最希望你選擇最後這一項，誰知道，你可能會改變很多人的一生。

Above is copy out from an email i've received. i feel is veri meaningful so share with my readers. ^^

treasure and be contented with wat u have now. dun wait till is gone then regret. it will be too late.

too bored

2009-07-15T14:33:00.004+08:00

todae whole dae no mood to work once again.

lunch time didnt eat again.

dun feel well. vomitting for no reason since long long ago.

already keep seeing doc but nth help.

haiz.
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during lunch time. went down to buy cig and fruit juice. then back to smoking area.
suddenly sha ask to take foto. haha. during the 15 mins smoke we have took 10 over pics la.
lol.

love during office hour. cos i can be happy. although will emo at times. but somehow. i feel tat office work is the best la.

here are some pics tat we took jus now. ^^

This is Sha! hahahha! emo emo!

Pose!

Me!

The import gals!

the boredness in us.

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Random Random.

Nth goes really well.
everything jus up and down, up and down.
i'm so tired
i cant hold on anymore.
my mind wan to let go. wan to stop everything.
wan to forget every sweetness and things abt him.
but my heart dun listen to me.
things will keep be the same.
is not my fault. i didnt betray, lie or unfaithful.
but. y m i the one keep holding and loving him?
i wish i noe. but really hard. i think i nv noe.
i noe every bad point of his. i noe every single lie he did.
i accept every single lame excuse from his.
was keep being hurt over and over again.
but stilli'm loving him lots.

I HATE the cold shouler you gave! :'(

[[Praying hard that things goes more and more better but somehow it doesnt go that way]]

i hate u

2009-07-15T12:32:00.003+08:00

I HATE YOU!

i hate the coldness u treat me. i dunno y.
somehow i feel tat there is someone.i dun wish to think anymore.
i wanna let go.i'm learning! but is really hard! i really dunno wat to.
i'm really veri veri xin ku. :'( i'm not gg to voice out anymore.
repeating again and again make myself also veri fan.
i should jus let everything be normal. i shouldnt care anymore!
over and over again. i jus can't help it.tears is always like free one whenever i think of u.
y i have fall for u so deeply?i'm in pain! i nd you so much. do u noe?

i doubt so.

2009-07-15T11:58:00.002+08:00

Saw below story from a blog, feel is really nice. Wanna share with my readers! ^^

A girl in love asked her boyfriend:

"Who do you love most in this world?"
"Of course it's you." the guy answered.
"In your heart, what am I to you?" the girl asked.

"You're my rib. In the bible, it was said that God saw Adam was lonely.
During his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib & created Eve.
Every man has been searching for his missing rib.
Only when you find the woman of your life, will you no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet & happy life for awhile.
However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never ending worries of daily problems.
Their life became mundane.
All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away at their dreams & love for each other.
The couple began to have more & more quarrels and each quarrel became more and more heated.

One day after a quarrel, the girl ran out of the house.
At the opposite side of the road, the girl shouted:

" You dont love me! "

The guy hated her childishness, and out of impulse retorted,

" Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib! "

Suddenly, she kept quiet & stood there for a long while.
He immediately regretted what he said, but words spoken are like thrown away water.
You're can never take it back.

With tears, she ran back home to pack her things and was determined on breaking-up.
But before she left the house, the girl said,

"If I'm really not your missing rib, then please let me go."
"It is less painful this way. Let us go on our seperate ways & search for our own partners." she continued.

Five years passed.
He was never re-married but had tried to find out about her life indirectly.
She had left the country & came back. She had married a foreigner & divorced.
He felt anguish that she never waited.

One day on the road, they happened to bump into each other.

Guy: How are you?
Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?
Guy: No.
Girl: I'll be flying to New York on the next flight and will only be back in 2 weeks time.
Guy: Give me a call when you get back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned and waved good-bye.

One week later, he heard about her death.
She had perished in New York -- in the event that shocked the world.

Once again, he lit his cigarette.
And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart.
He then realised that she was the missing rib that he had so carelessly broken.

quote

2009-07-15T11:18:00.005+08:00

Jus some random post. saw below quote from a blog. feel is really meaningful.

One day you'll love me,
the way i loved you
One day you'll think of me,
the way i thought of you
One day you'll cry for me,
the way i cried for you
One day you'll want me,
but i won't want you

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To those who pushed me, thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have fallen.
To those who laughed at me, thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have cried.
To those who couldn't love me, thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have known true love.
To those who left me out, thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have discovered myself.
To those who betrayed me, thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have known reality.
But to those who thought I couldnt do it, it is YOU I thank the most.
Because without you, I wouldn't have tried.

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If you're...

Married,

Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry",
not "where are you" but "I'm right here", not "how could you" but "I understand",
not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are".

Engaged,

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together,
but how good you are for each other.

Not so single,

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person".
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

Heartbroken,

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

Naive,

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

Searching,

True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist,
nor can it be hidden where it truly does.
Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it shows;
the more you suppress it,the more it grows.

Playboy&Girl,

Never say I love if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when what you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall.

Possessive,

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else,
but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

Afraid to confess,

Love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

Still holding on,

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you,
only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go.

Single,

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love's only special when you give it to someone who is worth it.
So take your time and choose the best!

[[I jus wan a simple LOVE life.]]

happy birthdae to fion

2009-07-15T00:08:00.004+08:00

Happy birthdae to my bloodly bitch!!!!

and also

Happy birthdae to Aloy!!!!

May all ur wishes come true!!! ^^ take care always!

breakdowb

2009-07-14T20:48:00.003+08:00

i'm breakdown!

in everything!

EVERYTHING!!!!!

i jus simply hate everything now!

how i wish everything nv happen!

in r/s, frenz, family, EVERYTHING!

[[jus simply hate everything in my life now! i hope god heard my prayers and give me miracle!]]

2009-07-14T10:25:00.003+08:00

I TrEaSuRe YoU & ChEriSh YoU LoTs...
I WuN ReGeRt aNyThiNg...
CoS Be WiTh YoU Is ThE MoSt HaPpInEsS ThINGs i EvEr hAd...
I NeEd YoU To LiGhT Up My WoRlD/LiFe...
DuN HaVe You My WoRlD Is DaRk & LoSt...
U r ThE dEviL To LeAd Me FrOm Nw TiLl FoReVeR...

All I Ever Want Was You ,
I Love You For Everithg You Are.
You're My Life,My Soul,My Boy;
The Perfect one For Me

Above words is for my devil since we together till now.

i only can sae i will always be loving u hubby!

random

2009-07-13T10:49:00.002+08:00

I'm here to share a veri great short essay...

這事發生在普吉島的 ClubMed 渡假村，那時我在那裡擔任中英文的翻譯公關。

有一天，我在大廳裡，突然看見一位滿臉歉意的日本工作人員，安慰著一位大約四歲的西方小孩，飽受驚嚇的小孩已經哭得精疲力盡了。

問明原因之後，我才知道，原來這位日本工作人員，因為那天小孩較多，一時疏忽，在兒童網球課結束後，少算了一位，將這位澳洲小孩留在網球場。

等到她發現人數不對時，才趕快跑到網球場，將這位小孩帶回來，小孩因為一個人在偏遠的網球場，飽受驚嚇，哭得浠浬嘩啦的。現在澳洲媽媽出現了，看著自己的小孩哭得慘兮兮的。如果你是這位媽媽，你會怎麼做？是痛罵那位工作人員一頓？還是直接向主管抗議？或是很生氣的將小孩帶離開，再也不參加『兒童俱樂部』了？

都不是！請看-- 我親眼看見這位媽媽，蹲下來安慰四歲的小孩，並且很理性的告訴他：『已經沒事了，那位日本姊姊因為找不到妳而非常的緊張難過，她不是故意的，現在你必須親親那位日本姊姊的臉頰，安慰她一下！』

當下我只見那位四歲的小孩，墊起腳跟，親親蹲在他身旁的日本工作人員的臉頰，並且輕輕的告訴她：『不要害怕，已經沒事了！』就是要這樣的教育，才能養出寬容、體貼的孩子吧！體貼別人，也等於體貼了自己的心。

2009-07-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

no mood to blog anything! jus some random post.

have create a new friendster. a new refresh.

have copy some words from frenz blog which i feel veri meaningful.

快乐就剩下照片幸福就剩下怀念

What Comes Around Goes Around
Im Not Spposed To Love You
Im Not Supposed To Care
Im Not Supposed To Live My Life
Wishing You Were There
Im Not Supposed To Wonder
Where You Are Or What You Do
Im sorry. I Cannot Help Myself
Cause Im In Love With You!!!

[[Pray and hope that everything is gonna to be fine. Babyboi i miss and love you much!]]

2009-07-11T11:55:00.004+08:00

has been contacting ppl. knowing the news.

he is gone.

the docs took out the machine things at 11 plus.

there is nth can be done le. :'(

we r trying to find ways to save him. as we already noe wat had happen already.

before his vain brust. they went to furnel for foto taking. liang mao went to take a close foto on the dead person/the foto(dun really rmb). after tat he like tat le. we believe he might have "huan teo". but is too late already.

now waiting for the wake details.

i dunno how to consol fatty. i'm sad too. i hate to noe the news of the ppl i noe has gone! but i have to accept the fact!

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R.I.P Liang mao! U'll be rmb!

random.

2009-07-11T11:03:00.003+08:00

slp at 6 this morning but wake up at 9 plus as having bad tummyache. actually after toilet i wan to go back slp de. but suddenly think of liang mao. so msg fatty ask him got any news ant. he sae no. after 5 mins he call me.

liang mao parents decide to take off the machine and let him leave.

fatty is sad. he sae he cannot accept the fact. but seriously once again i dunno how to consol him. haiz. a young guy still got long future jus gone like tat. really hope that he can out of miracle and wake up.

i'm waiting for eeyork call to tell me.

jus really pray that he will get up!

happy birthdae to fion

2009-07-11T01:30:00.010+08:00

I'm back to update once again.

o9o7o9

after work meet "monster" at vivo. walk around and we when to watch movie at 945pm. all the time slot is full lo. so no choice we have to go walk walk first. went to eat carl's jr. after tat went for smoke then went to pet shop cos i wan see puppy. keke. went to daiso as i wan to find container for "hu pan" but cannot find. so left there.

walk down to B1 to gaint as he wan to see his stock. after tat went for smoke again then we went to starbucks and slack. sit there till 915pm then slowly walk back to cinema.

the show end abt 1130pm ba. i swear i wun go vivo watch movie again la. the seat is damn hard ok. and we both agree that we not gg there to watch anymore. haha.. went for smoke again then we went to take cab. "Monster" send me home first then he went back. reach home at 12 plus rest awhile then slp le.

Edited/
1oo7o9

after work went to tpy brought winnie the poor for Fion as she is celebrating her birthdae early. after buying i went over to mummy house slack. till 8 plus zhong come over fetch me then we go over.

reach there talk and play. fatty call me and broke a news to me. a frenz of us his name is liang mao(wat we call him) suddenly brain vain brust. which make him went into hospital. doc sae tat his brain already dead. now he can live by machine. is a sudden news. although i dun really noe him but still hope there is a mircale in him! he is only a 19 years old boi lo. and jus get attached not long ago only. out of a sudden i have a thinking. seriously we can nv noe wat is gg to happen the next moment. treasure before it is gone. haiz. back to update at there till 12 plus then we left first cos zhong tml got to work and he promise his wife to go back early. actually gg to meet "monster" but end up i choose to go home cos he at st james. i lazy. haha. as tml got to wake up early to my cousin house.

reach home online till now and think of update blog. nth much le. will update again.

lastly..............

Happy 20th advance birthdae to My BITCH........

FION LEE!!!!! ^^

She and the winnie pooh.

kelly and fion.

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Jus wanna be your Baby Angel Gal.

[[I'm so lost and lonely without you!]]

2009-07-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

whole dae at home. having fever and have 2 daes mc. has been watching show online since morning.

went to see doc after wake up. then abt 12 plus eat le lunch then eat medicine and fall aslp while watching show. slp till 5 plus then wake up. continue to watch. haha.

fatty is busy these daes. i have been trying hard to learn and be a veri good gf. jus hope he can sense and see ba. i'm jus contented. ^^

nth to blog le. has been veri boring since this morning. thinking tml how. haiz.

see how ba.

gg to continue with my show le. nth much to blog also. good nite readers~~~ ^^

[[Loving you is wat i will always do. no matter wat you'r always my one and only.]]

2009-07-06T23:44:00.005+08:00

before the time goes to 12. i would like to sae Happy 1 Years 7 Mths Anniversary to my Precious. ^^

although since 1 years 4mths(if dun rmb wrongly la) we still will send each other anniversary msg. hee. everything turning well le. todae got sweet msg from him. at least things improve.

now i jus feel contented in everything. not gg to think so much again! ^^

todae have nth much. after work come home le. watching 命中注定我愛你 since ytd. keke. damn nice lo. i veri long time nv watch taiwan drama show le.

will update tml if online again! nite nite all!~

[[I love my family and frenz! ^^]]

2009-07-06T14:21:00.003+08:00

Would like to share this with all my readers. copy from email. damn funny lo.

We control them or they control us?

1) When lift door opens...
Aus: The one nearest will automatically hold the button for the rest to go in first, then he goes in last.
SG: The people behind will squeeze from behind to get to the front, shoving and pushing to block those exiting.

2) While waiting in line to pay at cashier...
Aus: Those in front with many groceries will let you through to pay first, if you got only few items to pay.
SG: Hope la... Wait in line for your turn. So what if you only queuing to pay for 1 drink can? I got a whole trolley of groceries! Tan la....

3) If you pushing a pram at a busy mall...
Aus: People will give way to you to get through the crowd.
SG: People will ignore your pram and squeeze through. If your pram hit their leg, they will turn around and give you a KNNBCB look.

4) While trying to find a lot at a busy carpark...
AUs: They will let you have the parking lot first if you got children in car, especially if you got prams.
SG: NB . . . I come first hor! Got kids, so what? Wait la! Why? Cannot wait, is it?!?!

5) Driving along the road, trying to change lanes..
Aus: the moment you signal, they will slow down for you.
SG: The moment you signal, they will go faster besides you, to block your lane.

6) When calling a helpline...
Aus: "Thank you for calling Austar, your call is important to us, and we will attend to you as soon as possible. Pls hold." and then, 5 secs, someone answers..... " Sorry for holding, this is Ann, how may I assist you?"
SG: " Our system is not getting a response from the subscriber's mobile phone. Pls try again later"..... engaged tone.. Or else, it is "All our operators are busy at the moment, pls continue to hold and your call will be answered in the next available order. " After 10 minutes.... still same msg. Hang up lor.

7) At McDonalds' . . .
Aus: " G' Day, may I have your order, sir? Would that be all? Thank you and you have a nice day. I am glad to be of service to you today. Ta.."
SG: Eating here, or take away????? that will be $11.70. Next pls.....

8) When u bought a dress and realized wrong size. You return to exchange..
Aus: We gladly offer a full refund with no question asked.
SG: Sorry, Goods sold are not refundable!!!

9) When u call up a service company to complain about their service...
Aus: We appreciate your feedback and our company hereby offers you a $50 voucher for your next purchase. Thank you.
SG: We will be following up on the complain and will get back to you soonest..... After months, die of natural death. Pretend nothing happened.

10) Your handphone is damaged and you goes to a service center...
Aus: We will be glad to lend you a spare while your phone is being repaired. If it cannot be repaired, we will gladly replace you with a new phone.
SG: Your phone will take about 3-4 weeks for re pair. Meantime, you have no phone, but we will call you when its ready. . . How to call me when I have no hp? Funny, right?

ice age

2009-07-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

just a short update.

whole dae was at home till evening time went for jogging. end up raining and jog in the rain. tears flowing together with rain drop due to over saddness.

6 plus devil wake up msg me. things changing le. he no longer call me laopo lo. haiz. regret sending tat email to him. but anyway already send le. so be it. wat is done cannot be undone le.

feel like gg for movie so tell him. and he ask me wat movie. so end up check the movie list. but the show i wanted to watch de dun have. so end up i sae stay at home lo. and devil sae watch ice age.

meet him 8 plus at jubilee. went to buy ticket then went to eat. after eat we went up for our show. not a bad show. is cute lo. keke. he treat me cold. but somehow i tell myself must be contented.

after movie, we smoke then took cab send him back. due to the way is more nearer to his place first. while in cab hug him and cry sliently as i really feel veri heart pain. but nv let him noe. if not he wan sae i anyhow think liao. when reaching his place. he give me goodbye kiss. =) how i wish time can stop at that moment. before he alight cab he ask me to msg him when reach home.

after reach home i thanks him for the movie and then tell him i'm home. at least he did reply and sae good nite to me. he gg slp le. again this msg no laopo. haiz. dunno when he will call me back lo. anyway i think through le. i'm not gg to listen wat other sae le. wat is past already past. if he start treating me good i will treasure.

dunno y love him tat much. in this r/s all along the person which do wrong and unfaithful is him. but seems to be me. haiz. =( anyway see wat to do ba.

[[i wish to have a miracle!]]

happy

2009-07-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

back to update in case spider come to build spider web. LOL! haha.

ytd went to cut my hair after work. after tat meet up with jas. went over to mummy hse slack. till evening time i fall aslp lo. haha. end up when i wake up they sae wan go to bugis. but i dun wan. so after they left i went back to slp again. slp till 9 plus then wake up. haha.

call up to jerome let him noe i wake up liao as he wanted to meet me. he is my customer actually. but off work become frenz la. haha. so decide to go out. went to bath then went back to amk change and meet him downstair.

he is with his frenz edmund. both of them damn crap lo. keep make me laugh. we finish our smoke we went to beach road as jerome wan to eat the fish head steamboat there. i already eat liao but end up he force me eat somemore. o.O" full till wanna die liao lo. haha. after eating we went to marina barrage! a place whre i wan to go lo. jerome decide to go there as i nv go before.
damn happy la. haha. went there walk walk then see the nite view there which i love it lo. have fun there also.

after marina barrage, thinking whre to go lo. end up they keep drive around orchard cos dunno where to go. then tat jerome keep saying he wan to drink water as veri thirsty. so end up we find a 7-11 then went to buy drink. after buy drink we decide to go henderson wave. jus wanna see only la. haha. after tat i think we went to ECP ba. wan to play pool. but end up nv.

since no pool to play and the time abt 2 plus. so end up decide to send me home. lol. after reach hse downstair we smoke one more stick then after tat i went back home le.

slp at morning 6am if not wrong. was talking on fon to BT after reach home cos he got some problem then nd advice.

haiz. i really nd a miracle badly! hope to see devil msg soon lo. haiz. :(

lastly i wanna sae i LOVE PLURK! kekeke. is like ppl in there is better then real life frenz la! although we dunno each other. but somehow, the concern and care is from their heart lo. :)

[[i jus hope things can get better and not worst.]]

happy

2009-07-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

i'm happy! due to step mum ownself sae pay half of my prac. hahaha. at least i wun feel they always jus dote my bro.

lastly only can sae. finally so mani years. after i stop sch till now already 7 years le. they start to see my exist! lol. hard work so long. keke.

[[Hoping for everyting will be smooth and fine!]]

sad and happy

2009-07-02T15:02:00.004+08:00

jus a random post.

todae damn late. end up waste money on cab once again. haiz. have to make myself wake up early le! nv eat lunch once again. my colleague sha she so sweet lo. i saw her card holder. which is whole things transparents de. which i like quite alot. so i ask her buy from where. she sae from downstair. later can go buy. then i tell her i dun wan go down. veri lazy. haha.

stay in office online through out the lunch. when sha come back she pass me the card holder. hahaha. so sweet rite. she when to buy for me lo. keke. ^^

around 2 plus, step mum call me. talk to me abt ah ma. both ah ma and her quarrel and urge due to money. haiz. i start to feel sad. cos, there is sth not rite on ah ma. lately she keep sae her self useless due to her hand getting more and more no strenght. whenever i saw tat or heard it i feel heart pain and sad.

now a dae she veri blur. her memories getting more and more no good le. i tent to tell her dun blame her self. cos old le then some memory will be poor de ma. try to comfont her. haiz. bt deep down in me i damn worry. i start to think of the worst. the reason y is because. i told my cousin abt wat had happen abt ah ma. then she told me must keep an eye on her. due to my ah gong last time also like tat de. is like half body no strenght then went into hospital stay. but after daes he ok le and can be discharge. after discharge from hospital they send ah gong back home. and he look totally ok lo. but who noes after few daes/weeks then ah gong pass away le.

tat y i scare. although things might not be seriously to some of you but ah ma old already and old ppl we must take extra careful de. next year she gg to be 80. lately she complain her leg is pain. hand also. alot and alot.

i jus can pray to god everydae to let my beloved ah ma get better. i wan her to see my marriage. i wan her to sign my ROM paper. i wan her to see my kids. there is alot more. so i hope she can live till the world end. at least till tat dae. i'm also dying with her.

i think i shouldn't care abt r/s problem now. i should stay at home more.

[[if god only give me a choice. to choose on r/s or ah ma. i will choose my ah ma then r/s. i can't live without her. it has been 20 years with her. i love her the most.]]

2009-07-01T23:39:00.006+08:00

back to post! finally hor. haha. trying to recalled all details!

28o6o9

Went to bugis at evening time. meet up with christine. she is a online seller. brought things from her which cost me $19.90. after pick up my item, i went to pray. after tat went to coffee shop sit. as i cannot find tat fatty la! angry lo. end up when i was abit to shoot him off then he call liao. lol.
meet fatty at amk interchange. went to popular to buy note book and pen. i got myself things i wan. which fatty pay de. lol. after tat went to hub meet fatty sis and mum. went to new york have our dinner.

after dinner, sis and mum went back and me and fatty went to took cab to nite safari. keke. reach there at 8 plus. went to buy ticket. after tat we went in to que for animal show. which start at 9 plus. I Love the animal show la! those animal so cute can! keke. but abit scray also lo. cos animal come out from everywhere. haha. took quite alot of foto. but only some update. dunno wat happen to my cam lo. so sux. haiz. is time to get a new one le. haiz. sian. after animal show we went to took tram. quite dark so i didnt take foto. before the tram start they have those ppl help u take foto de. then after the tram ride we went to see our foto. and we brought it for $20. quite ex la. but is a memories ma. keke. after tat went home le. the rest let's use pics to update.

Fishes outside toilet. keke. all fishes damn big lo.

The ticket.

The Map

while waiting to go in to see animal show then took this foto.

words in tram.

Nite safari wish fufil. The memories.

hold my hand and nv let go.

brought by fatty to me.

A wonderful nite. -love-

29o6o9

went to work as usual. but is a angry morning. cos i was early todae but end up took cab again la! humph. bus always come at 820am de. and i 810 already reach market there. so i went to buy cig and bread. end up while walking over to bus stop, the bus already leave liao. so ended up no choice took cab. kaox!

after work meet up with my cousin. pei her to michelle jie house. babies so cute la. haha. we leave there at 8 plus. then sis send me back. online and edit pics plus update pics. jus lazy blog on mon. haha. after tat slp le.

3oo6o9

almost late todae. but luckily i catch the bus still. after work fatty sae meet up. go to jiu tian. went home bath after tat meet fatty at 450 for dinner then cab down. they talk there. but i walk to another side to talk on fon. after tat went back there sit and talk till 11 plus ba then took cab back.

o1o7o9

half year has past! so fast. mani things have happen lo. but still alive. lol. back to update. late todae. due to ytd slp too late. after work meet up fatty as he sae wan pass me things. took train back together from marina bay. fatty went to bugis and he brough me a cute small water bottle and two box of pokie. haha. although is not ex and is cheap but is the thots that counts. =) while on train had quarrel with ash. dun wish to sae much anyway. send fatty to take bus as he lazy to walk home. so i waited for ash to pass me things then went home le. once reach home online till now. nth much. oh ya. being scold by fatty. due to i nv eat. only eat one curry puff this morning till 9 plus then take dinner. fatty already slp le. and saying i bu guai cos so late still online. after update blog gg slp le. if not, he will scold me liao.

The things from fatty.

tml fatty will be being charge due to his cam fon. hope that everythings will be fine.

i'm learning to let go the past and jus be contented with wat i have now. =)

[[I jus hoping for a miracle. i jus wan to noe how m i gg to walk the way. i love you lots babyboi!]]

sad

2009-06-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

feeling veri veri bored. since after work. go pay bills then after tat come home online till now. waiting for the fatty to wake up. haiz.

wan to go nite safari todae! but, haiz. now he go do things then i'm waiting at home. =( wait till he finish then meet for dinner. gg down tua also.

haiz. alot of things la. feel like crying! now got to go prepare le. as fatty ok liao.

sth happy which is. at least he did plan tml nite bring me go nite safari!!! ^^ (but dunno will go anot la. have to see tml ba.)

[[爱你爱得我好辛苦!]]

change blog

2009-06-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

Finally!!! Sit at lappy since 7 plus till now! Jus doing on my Ds games, Themes & blog skin!!! OMG! I damn long nv change already la. not gg to update any post already. cos is late now. tml i still got to work. poor me have to wake up early to take train! haiz.

My eyes gg close le. got to slp le. lately dun feel well. gg for docs if its continue!

Lastly, I wanna sae CONGRATULATION TO MY JAS DARLING!!! ^^ really happy for her that getting marry on this coming AUG!

marring a person you truly love and the person truly love you, it will be the most wonderful things in this world!

when will be mine? haiz.

[[Missing you every sec, mins, days. I'm thinking can i wait till o612? Shall let the fate decide! I'm still loving you!]]

update.

2009-06-18T23:49:00.005+08:00

back to update in case i lazy. ^^

17/o6/o9

went back home after work to bath and then went to meet ash to go courts. leave after tat. due to sth i'm quite disappointed. dun wish to mention anyway. after tat went to jan place for dinner then stay over.

18/o6/o9

wake up at 7 plus. went to work damn early todae. lol. request for timeoff. leave office at 5pm. meet jas at mrt station and then ahead to tampines. walk around as the time still early. went over to our appointment at 715pm. till 8 plus then finish. quite disappointed and feel sad. but some how is good also.

after tat share cab with jas to tpy. meet up with devil as he wan me to bring him go cut hair. lol. pei him go to QB house cut hair. actually wan to go to the salon we normally go de but close le. so he veri no choice have to go any salon. end up we went to QB HOUSE. is quite cute lo. have to take ticket de. keke.

After cut hair we went to nite market at entertainment centre there. while walking over suddenly devil hold my hand and ask me can hold me ant. lol. walk to a shop which do pants de. so check the things we need then walk to entertainment le. the nite market is damn damn small lo. so end up we decide not to walk le. and took bus to mummy house. slack awhile till 10 plus 11 then we went to market and eat our dinner. chat with mummy and uncle till 1130pm then took cab home.

The ticket.

I feel this is veri cute and meaningful. so take down the pics and post for everyone here. ^^

How i hope everything is jus a dream. cos whenever he start to sweet to me. after tat will treat me cold once again. seriously i also dunno wat he wan now. has been a week, he msg me and call me laopo. every morning have morning msg without fail. jus the the past. bt somehow things is different now. jus hope things can be fine! if we really have the fate to be together again. jus pray hard that everything is gonna be good and fine. and wun ended up the same. i no longer hoping for anything. jus let the "顺其自然". ^^

[[Loving you is wat i will always do. is jus the matter of showing it out or keep it deep in my heart.]]

2009-06-18T13:54:00.003+08:00

A veri meaningful story will like to share.

七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。
晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”
女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。
他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”
随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。
女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。
后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。
女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。
以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”
女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。
那个女人坐在桌子上，****** 的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”
可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……

[[Nothing can descride how i feel now. Everything start to change again! Sick and tired of my life! rather be alone. without frenz nor bf.]]

update update

2009-06-16T13:21:00.004+08:00

i'm back for my update. jus realise i haven't been update since the last post which is 1/6. -faint-

a veri veri long post i suppose. lol. but it wun be veri details. will try to recall. taking a break so come blog. ^^

o2/o6/o9

went down to henderson to meet fion. have some talk with her. till quite late then go home.

o3/o6/o9

went to bedok sin tua with dar and bb. ah pek "party" end up only 2. lol. went back quite late also.

o4/o6/o9

went to bedok again with jas and ash. todae is tian de. due to some reason went back to tpy stay and dar come over till 3 plus then went home.

o5/o6/o9

meet devil and have some talk. then went to clementi. meet up with ash,jan & jas. go over clark quey. actually gg clubbing. bt due to ash wearing slipper and 3/4 so cannot go in. end up we go to mac and eat after tat take cab down to illzution but. under renovation. lol. so we brought drink from 7-11 then went back jan house. till 4 plus 5 we all went to slp.

o6/o6/o9

being wake up early in the morning due to they dragging me to see docs. lol. so went to downstair eat breakfast then after tat went to clementi de ploy see docs. till afternoon time then went back jan house.

evening time went to tua with ash and jas. having ban gong till quite late. after eat went back with devil.

o7/o6/o9

devil take cab then fetch me at house there. went to tpy fetch jas. after tat head down to bugis. devil went to meet aloy and me and jas walk around wait for jan to reach. at abt 3 plus 4 i think. then jan come. went to pray and walk around. jas went to ban gong then me went to meet devil. shop around the new shopping mall there. after tat we took bus back to amk. devil take cab send me back home then he went home change and rush to work le.

o8/o6/o9

meet up with ash to amk centre. actually looking for jas birthdae present de. but we cannot find wat we actually wan. so end up nv buy. went to courts after tat. ash apply the installment things. after tat we went home.

o9/o6/o9

meet up with ash again. went to tpy. actually wanna surprise jas. end up. she idiot. ps me. kns. so end up we went back to amk. then went home.

1o/o6/o9

actually meeting up with jas de. last min cancel again. kns. so nv meet le. talk on fon with ash then courts ppl call. sae everything is approve and we can go down todae to collect those item. haha. so happy. ^^

but end up. i went over to clementi first as i meeting jan to take my stuff back. chat with her till 9 plus then take cab back to amk. the poor ash waiting for me. lol. i'm sorri. ^^ after she help me to bring my lappy home she went home le.

on lappy and web cam with ash till 3 then slp.

11/o6/o9

went down to tpy centre with franics. meet jas at house there. after eat franics left and me with jas went over to 2 head there to meet up with ash. had dinner there then walk over to ash tua. todae her tua got small chu yew. so go see lo. but we nv follow la. when they gg to shuang ling shi then me and jas left le. went over to coffee shop as jas packing food for her bf. walk back to lor 5 after tat.

went back mum house to find my charger. after tat went home online again. lol.

12/o6/o9

went home online after work. end up 9 plus 10 like tat zhong msg me. so i call him. he sae so bored and he is hungry. so end up he come fetch me then we went to aljunied. actually is to surprise jas. lol. cos todae she got ban gong ma. end up when we go up. ah pek go back liao. lol. so we went to market and eat. after tat went back home le.

13/o6/o9

went to work in the morning. bring my new baby along with me. haha. after work meet ash at mrt then we took train to jan house. stay there online and slack. have some things happen with devil. dun wish to sae le.

actually gg to fish at nite with zhong. but end up i cancel. cos feel like drinking. went to dinner. jan ask me wan eat wat. then i tell her mango. lol. after dinner she really go buy mango lo. kns. there is a bet. which is if she really can find mango give me eat. i will have to eat she cook de ku gua. faint. went back to eat my mango and which tv. slack awhile then prepare and went to illzution. the place change quite alot. me and jan dun really like there anymore. too noisy. drink till i also dun no wat time le. as wat i noe is i keep telling jan i wan to go back slp. haha.

reach jan house i jus rmb i already slp till dunno where. lol.

14/o6/o9

wake up in the morning. after tat on lappy to find songs. went to downstair for lunch and back to house again. devil msg me ask me wan to go eat with him and then go sin tua ant. so i agree. went to bath and change then left jan house. devil is waiting for me since 3 plus i think. end up i only reach at 4 plus. lol. lucky didnt scold me lo. send ash back then i went back. meet devil at bus stop there then he take cab to chinatown. we went to chinatown there de market eat. after eat and smoke we go walk walk.

till abt 8 plus we took cab down to kallang there. see the sin tua. stay there till 10 plus then went back. feeling damn damn tired.

15/o6/o9

went over to cousin house pei them. till 11 plus then left.

16/o6/09

todae actually gg to pei jan for car test. end up. kns she got things on suddenly. so tonite i gg to courts make payment then went home online then slp early. ^^

jus hope that everything can be fine. haiz. i think my life is getting out of my hand.

(Get to noe sth alot of things. between different ppl also. i dunno how to sae. anything things is over. out of my expectation. i'm shock to hear tat. i swear it wun happen again.)

[[i missing you everysec. but somehow. haiz.]]

2009-06-13T02:35:00.004+08:00

long time didnt update blog le. but i'm here to upload some pics only. as sweet is complainting le. =x will update again once free.

New Lappy with piggy msn. ^^

first view

2nd view

3rd view.

above things all thanks to sweet. if not i wun have it. ^^ really thanks and i will treasure de. hope our friendship always there k. (PS: Dun keep make me angry!) keke.

[[I'm missing you so much. everything cant be the same anymore.]]

2009-06-05T13:30:00.002+08:00

忘了爱

分手都已过了那么久
现在也有自已的生活
你身边有个人牵着你的手
我们就像是朋友偶尔联络

心情不好你会来跟我说
我安慰你不难过
等你恢复笑容
总是笑着道谢转身走
变成朋友的你和我并不轻松

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
爱的重量不在我身上

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
过去不想全部隐藏
就试着遗忘

说
对我诉说你跟他满脸笑容
我微笑地聆听接受
过去的你和我
是否也爱得那么冲动
痛哭好久开心也有让人感动

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
但是我的心现在却比你还伤

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
让你看透我的心现在我不想
是该说放就放
就试着遗忘

痛苦我会遗忘
只想看你开心的模样
新的恋情让它成长
而过去就
放在心上

[[我又一再一再的受伤了!在爱情里,没有对与错.我只不过想要和你,开开心心的走完这一生.难道有那么困难吗?我的心已经碎成很多很多块,真的很痛很痛!因为太了解你,所以我很伤心与痛苦!我再也承受不了.]]

for u.

2009-06-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

sorri ppl i dun wish to update post as i really not in the mood.

this reply post is for u.(u noe who r u.)

yes the past post i wrote is refering to u. actually when S wan ask me go down pei her and talk, i was thinking will see u ant. cos i will not noe how to talk or face u. actually when on the way there i wanted to msg u de. but i dun dare. so i stop myself. once reach i call s and ask her whether u all at there ant. she sae ya jus came. so i ask her come to coffee shop. i and s sit at coffee shop talk for quite long time le. then after tat then decide to walk over.(btw i dun wan go over is not tat i dun wan see u all. is tat i dun wan spoil the mood of u all.)

when saw p she sae hi to me. and i didnt see u there so i walk over. tot of talking to p de. end up saw u. and u noe i come but didnt bother to turn ur head or wat. so i assume u dun wish to see me, and is still angry. so end up i didnt talk to u all. and i walk away. i also dun wish things turn till so bad too.

yes u do noe me well. i dun take first move. but i do intend to at least smile to u. but i'm scare. cos i dunno wat u thinking actually. to you, there is ppl entertain u. to me i think more. i more sad. cos. it let me think back tat normally we stick together and talk rubbish. and mani more la. but now. i seems to be stranger to u all. so end up. i didnt talk much to p also.

if noe me well, u should noe tat i wun so "auto" get close to u all de. cos i dun like ppl later sae tat i thick skin. i jus dunno how to explain la. do we really have to make till like tat? i really dunno wat u thinking.

seriously i'm breaking down once again. i've bounce back once again. and have to walk out again. this time is a must. now i jus wan to start a refresh of everything! wat i wan now is frenz. is like i believe got frenz accompany can slowly let go of my devil. but is hard really hard.

i dunno wat can talk to u also le. btw i do still will view ur blog. so anything u can also write there or jus msg me. i think i'll stop here le ba. nth come into my mind le. the only thing is him only. so if i continue i think this post will be my devil post again. haha.

take care of ur self aways. if one dae u really nd someone and really no one can be with u or wat. jus give me a call or msg. i'll still be there for u. jus tat s. she cos of "J" lie to me. and she "J"'s love. yet when she nd someone i can be there. my sweet sae i crazy. due to this. lol. but to me. frenz is frenz. i cannot stop others feel rite. like i told u before. wat i dun like is lies. other then that i'm ok. i dun treat ppl as enemy for life time. i rather have more frenz. even hi bye frenz also good.

i will do miss the "sweet" daes & times we had. although not much. but at least is a memories. ^^ Love.

[[no matter how u hate me or dislike me. my face to u seems to be dislike u or wat so ever. when things doesnt goes really wrong or too much, deep down in my heart will always rmb all my frenz which came into my life de before.]]

heart broken

2009-06-03T01:31:00.005+08:00

now is already so late. yet i'm still awake. jus wanna post out my thoughs.

todae is already the 3 jun. another 3 daes to "our 1 year 6mths anniversary" i still carrying the hope. but somehow. i noe sth which i shouldnt noe. at first i feel nth. but. dunno y my heart start to feel pain. and tears when i truly saw it.

is time for me to truly let go. i really is the biggest fool tat believe him over and over and over AGAIN! y??? ask me believe yet still wanna let me noe there is lies? heart totally broken. yes veri veri pain. i think it will be the really really last time ba.

this time i didnt confront him. i didnt. cos. i dun wan to let someone in a diffcult place. if wasnt she told me. i also wun noe. i should actually really thanks her to let me noe this things and everything. if i didnt noe. i think i will still hoping and will nv noe.

no longer waiting for the devil! i must lead my own life. i wan to walk out of the circle.

somehow i also sad abt fren. we all no longer like how we use to be. i wanted to walk over and talk to her. but i'm afraid. overall i cant change the things. i cant let the time go back. if i could i will let the time go back till when i wasnt in this world.

i'm wordless once again. you break my heart deeply. real deep.

(i can look real happy or cheerful when outside. but deep dwn in me. i'm feeling really pain. everywhere,anywhere i went i think of you. things isnt so easy for me. we really go through so much. i really cant understand y u can treat it as nth. nth at all! if is really no longer loving me then please dun hold me anymore. dun give me any hope! let me go. jus avoid me totally! i jus cant accept the fact. maybe i'm really tat lousy.)

when ever i look at those past post abt us i feel more painful.

[[i'm jus the stupiest & biggest fool in this world. reall feeling damn damn pain.]]

update

2009-06-01T12:32:00.004+08:00

kindly bored at work. so decide to update blog. it will be a long update once again. haha.

26/o5/o9

plan for janet birthdae. after work i went to chinatown with sweetie for dinner then went to look for cake. something bad happened which spoil my mood. dun which to mention le. after tat we took cab to illuzion. actually i suppose to reach earlier then janet they all de. as i have to bring the cake in first. but who noe they already there. so sweetie help me take the cake and go aside. while i have to go over to show my face. lol. so after i went in, i find the waitress. ask her whether there is any back door. lucky they have. so i tell her open the back door and wait for me. as the cake is a surprise. went outside to do the cake things after tat went back to talk and drink with them. act as nth have happen. sweetie left after tat. didnt ask her join cos i scare joey they all dun like. we sing, talk, drink and play. at abt 9 plus 10 i think, joey husband came. so i and him play pool. loser drink half cup. end up he lose. lol. haha. wanted to cut cake but must wait for "A". msg him then after tat he came around 10 plus 11 ba. dun really rmb the time. i only noe is before 12am for sure. haha. y he came over so late cos he sae tat he go do things. (dun wish to sae much le. as my previous post. i noe tat he went where. he lie.)

went to prepare the cake and ask the waitress to insert the birthdae song for us first as is actually other table de song. walk over and sae sorri to them and back to the place where i taking the cake. when heard the song then i slowly walk out. hee. and guess wat. my dear janet tears. cos she didnt expect got a cake. which really surprise her veri much. =) took some foto.(but the foto is not with me. i'm waiting for the "A" to send. but i think is hard la.) contiune drink and sing. end up cry. cos i think of last year de todae. a veri sweet memories with devil. i noe i shouldnt cry. but i cannot control. so end up. cry damn damn hard and alot. =( i'm ok after tat. end up is janet. diaox.

anyway i can sae we do really enjoy todae. joey and her hubby went back first cos the hubby drunk le. end up we still at there cos janet dun wan go home. till 2 plus mr ang and "A" bring janet to take cab back. after 1 song. we went home.

27/o5/o9

reach office talk abt ytd issue with joey. lol. keep naggy and say tat janet veri scary. lol. ytd total open 2 bottles and 2 jugs. whole dae talking abt this issue. lol. after work went to sweetie work place there. meet her le then we went to buangkok to walk walk. actually jas also meeting us de. end up she put us aeroplane. kns. took bus to hougang to change bus back to amk. reach home at 9 plus if not wrong. sweetie pei me up to house take money and went down buy cig for me. i veri tired so ask her help. after tat due to some reason cannot come in so she have to go back. (really feel so bad. sorri sweet!) after she left then talk to step mum. noe things abt my step bro. anyway youngster is like tat. after tat bath rest awhile then slp le.

28/o5/o9

after work went to gelyang to meet zhong. after tat we went to loyang as there have dragon competition final. meet AZ at there. went to petrol station to buy some drinks and sandwich then go down. stand there see the program. after tat AZ 2 frenz come over. only got 5 troupe only. saw someone ther. but didnt go call her. and i think she also saw me. anyway no big deal. after finish seeing the 5 troupe we decide to go changi eat. i so bad lo. i take AZ car and ps zhong. wahahhaa. no la. is actually i wear jeans then climb up and down the bike veri ma fan. then since we gg to the same venue and i noe AZ so i take his car lo. keke. went over to changi village market eat. talk. after tat zhong fetch me home. bath le talk on fon awhile then slp le.

29/o5/o9

found out sth when at work. dun wish to sae le. jus can sae i'm the biggest fool to believe. anyway forget it. after work went over to sweetie working place to pass her money as i buying cig from her colleague. after tat we took train to bugis. meet her cousin and frenz there. walk around and didnt found things tat i wan so we deicde to go eat. when to bugis junction there de food court. after eat we took train to tpy. her cousin and frenz drop off at newton. so left we two lo. went to uncle heng shop to help janet buy her bluetooth then head over to lorong 5 jas house. while walking over i call mummy. ask if can go up our house instead. cos i can change and relax ma. lucky mummy sae can. if not i sure nag. lol. so happy and walk over. went to look for jas first then we go up to mummy place. chat at there till 1 plus then go home. actually nv online de. end up cos of the stupid ting ask me online.so online lo. confercence chat with sweetie and jas also. till 3plus then went to bed.

3o/o5/o9

wake up at 8 plus. went to bath prepare then bring my sis to work. reach office at 9 plus. @ abt 11 plus sweetie reach my office. so all play game till 1230pm. then leave the office. went to tpy to cut hair as sis hair is long. and keep coax her lo. cos she is sad tat she cutting her hair. haha. after hair cut we went to take our lunch. then back home le as sis having swimming at 4pm. reach home pack my stuff then after tat leave the house at 4 plus almost 5pm. took cab to seng kang with sweetie. after she drop me off she gg to yishun. when to NTUC with my cousin brought alot alot of stuff then walk back her house. play with my baby nephew & niece. at abt 7 plus. zhong come fetch me. then went to bedok. sit at coffee shop to have dinner. suddenly, papa call. sae todae got ppl wan to ask. so i have to on call them. fatty devil sae he veri sick. but if really nd to ban then no choice lo. so ended up all meet at tua. do everything asap as he really damn sick. hope can end asap. waited till 930pm then start invite. everything end at 11 plus. sit at tua awhile then ask zhong to send him back. end up he sae wan go back by cab. ask zhong send me instead. diaox. so cos of this have a bit bit argue. but after tat ok le. so zhong send him back and i at tua talk to papa. at abt 12 plus zhong come back le. he fetch me to clementi. really thanks him. ^^ went to coffee shop first to meet sweetie. she is quarreling with her ex. diaox. after tat i keep nag wan go up to jan's house le as i wanna bath. so we went up lo. went to bath then eat maggi mee which cook by jan. msging with jas half way she no reply. cos fall aslp. diaox. she actually also coming up de. but who noe she fall aslp le. lol. watch tv till 4 plus i think then go slp.

31/o5/o9

end up wake up at 9 plus. dunno y so early wake up. went to living room smoke then went back to slp again. this time wake up at 12 plus. sweetie wan to go downstair buy coffee so ask her buy lunch also. i decide for jan cos she is still slping. once sweetie step out of the house, jan wake up le. lol. haha. so i double confirm the food with her then sweetie went to buy food. when she come back, she sae me. cos she lost her way. she called me but i nv pick up. cos i put slient ytd. then i forget on back. wahaha. so keep saying sorri lo. but also keep laughing la. haha. while eating, jas msg me. ask she got no where to go. so ask her come over. wait for her reach le then chat awhile then jan & sweetie start to keep nagging me ask me go bath. to them i bath veri long. where got lo. normally i veri fast de lei. but they sae no lo. i veri long. they sae i bath nd almost 1hr. o.O" i think i got fatty devil de "chuan run" la. kns. so ended up i go bath first lo. after ok le then they start 1 by 1 go bath le. after sweetie come out from the room. jan sae her liao. cos she wearing long sleeve la. lol. the weather is damn damn damn hot lo. everyone jus sae her. haha. cos she actually have to attend a wedding dinner. but due to her laziness so she dun wan to go. haha. after prepare leave jan house at 5 plus.

went to fu lu shou as jan wan to buy stationary there. after tat we go to find hp pouch for jan. the weather is damn hot la. walk to bugis street to look. but the price is the same as the fu lu shou there so jan decide to go back there buy. so me, sweet & jas went to LJS to have some snacks first. sit there and cool our self down and wait for jan to come over. after everything we went back to fu lu shou there cos jan de pouch seems cannot fix. end up i brought 1 for my fon also. haha. after tat take cab to boon keng. meeting mr ang there. drinking again. diaox. jus bit bit la. chat down there. suddenly received msg from fatty devil. ask where m i this and tat after tat i noe from him tat is actually he alone. anyway nvm. chat half way he sae got 2nd line so i hang up le. msg with him. jus ask him tat jus wan to noe tat we really cannot together le izzit. he reply sae he didnt sae is i think tat wat. after tat i ask him do he still love me. he reply and sae yes. he still love me. ^^ tat is enough of things i wanted to noe. he now sick. hope he get well soon ba. =) at the same time "a" also msg me. after u reply then he gone again. lol. (after wat have been lie, i will nv gonna believe again. everything is fake ok. so dun act in front of me anymore. thanks.) we keep sending song here and there lo. haha. but sweet went to talk on fon. so i talk to jas and jan talk to ang and his frenz. lol. at there till abt 8 like tat then we go back to clementi le. went to coffee shop eat dinner. after dinner went up to jan's hse le.

slack there till 1 plus then we go off. 3 of us take 1 cab. send jas back to tpy. then i back to amk. last will be sweet. seragoon.(spell this way?) in the cab they keep disturb me! KNS! I will rmb u de SWEET! Humph! Dun let me have the chance to disturb u hor. wahahaha. =x talk on fon with sweet awhile then i go bath and everything then actually i wanted to online via my fon de. but the ebuddy haven sign in i already fall aslp. haha.

1/o6/o9

todae already the 1st of jun le. has been quite emo this few daes actually. cos. 6th jun will be our 1 year 6 mths anniversary if we'r still together. haiz. i shouldnt think so much. jus be it ba. let the fate decide.

back to post. hmmm todae late le. so went to buy mac breakfast then after tat take cab to work. waiting time to fly faster as todae not really busy. later meeting jas at office down stair then go over sweet work place wait for her. gg for dinner and then go down to bedok de big dae.

will update once again ya. i think i will stop here and do my work le. =)

(How i hope and wish things is always so simple. jus like a baby.)

[[Everything will leave to Fate to decide.]]

liar

2009-05-29T17:57:00.002+08:00

Random post.

todae is the 71th dae without devil. dunno y todae get really emotion. maybe due to my "good" frenz. but somehow there is some problem.

yes i cried once again. everytime i think of devil and those daes. i cried. but now i'm ok le.

sweetie force me to accept the truth. keep telling me the facts. i noe all. but somehow i cannot accept.

haiz.

btw i found out sth. and i start to think. y guys love to lies? y whenever they lie i sure will noe? anyway i'm glad that i noe it now. rather then i go into it then i got hurt once again. and till now. my 6th sense is really good. but somehow. i jus wish i'm idiot. cos i dun wish to noe.

to you. i treat u as a fool. but so sorri to sae. to me i feel that i'm the biggest fool! jus out of my sight and i dun wish to heard anything anymore. understand.

dun wish to sae anymore.

sometimes i feel like msging her. and talk to her like we use to be. but. i noe it can't.

i'm still stuck in the heaven love! i realise is really hard for me to let go. how? i really dunno. breaking down soon.

now alone in office. waiting for the time to fly. so i can meet up with sweetie to bugis and find my "佛牌". bt i think todae my mood will be veri veri veri low. and will cry easily. haiz.

i dun noe wat to blog le. i think i should slowly slowly see wat i should do.

will update ytd things when i feel better. now jus feel like gg MIA. ppl around me is really fake lo. y?? i dun no y. can't jus treat me as a frenz? i'm really stupid! yes i m!

Sweetie. i'm breaking down. i noe u will be there for me. i'm glad to noe u. but somehow. i really dun understand y they wan like tat treat me. i dun dare tell u cos i noe u sure will scold me. plus if i talk till cry u gg to act monkey again. i will treasure our friendship de. hope jas will make her little brain think so she wun stuck down there. although i also stuck. but at least i noe when to throw those unhappy things away and enjoy. although i noe u dun really like her. but somehow human do make mistake. jus forgive and forget ba. anyway i would sae. thanks alot. lastly promise dun drag me to see doc next week. pls. i really dun wan. if really not ok then i go. now only left u. so far i can really trust. but please dun break my trust.

[[i feel really really sad and moody. tears jus cannot control. when can i really stand up and have lots of good frenz then fake ppl?]]

rounding

2009-05-26T11:04:00.002+08:00

i'm back to update le. if not gg to have spider web liao. lol.

24/o5/o9

went out to tpy meet ash at bus stop. then we walk in to find jas. went up to her house and talk. after tat abt 5 plus we went up to mummy house. went over to my neighbour to carry baby. haha. so cute la. almost half a year didnt see her le. keke.

slack at home till abt 6 plus then we leave. go to market have dinner. actually zhong fetching me to go see fa sheng dian big dae de. end up jas and ash sae i PS them so end up i told zhong tat i meet him there and we will take bus there. after dinner we walk to bus stop to take bus.

once reach there. we find toilet. LOL. our toilet queen wan go toilet. wahahaha. =x after tat we walk around there and saw fatty. diaox. first time met him in this way. and i swear lo. heart beat damn fast la. scare me sia. went up to talk awhile then go off liao. end up we slack at there awhile then go off to tamp. as fa sheng dian they start at 10plus. we dun wan wait so long. plus due to fatty is there. i dun wan stay there. went to tamp hz frenz tua. after awhile we feel real bored so change venue again. lol. tot of gg to beach de. but cos of jas then nv le. end up we went to loyang to pray. haha. they were having dragon competition there. but when we reach the stage there they are having prize giving le. lol. so we went to pray lo. almost finish praying hz call. ask where r we. then he start to nag when he noe we went to loyang. wahahah. so he come over find us. pester him to pray first. cos he sae we finish praying le. then he dun wan pray liao. diaox. but end up he go pray so we sit there wait for him. after he ok le. we chat awhile then leave loyang le. hz send jas back so me and ash went to take bus to bedok then change bus 25 back to amk.

reach amk abt 12 plus is not wrong. sit under void deck have some talk after tat went back home at 1 plus. bath finish le and chat on fon awhile then slp le.

25/o5/o9

late for work again. having a veri veri veri bad mon. veri bad mood also. haiz. anyway dun wish to mention le. after work hz call me. and confirm gg down to fa sheng dian again. cos we both wan see long wang. lol. so i went back home bath and change then hz come fetch me. went over to see they in trance. we didnt stay for the whole thing. after all the ki tong in trance, we went off le. haha. the time is only 9 plus. so hz keep asking where to go. so i start find places. end up i told him. either we go home or go tpy find jas. so we went tpy. hz have his dinner while i chatting on fon with ash. till quite long then jas and her bf come down. decide to go rounding to find food. Lol. so we went to changi village to eat. but when reach there who noe tat the market is close lo. so end up we go pasir ris. but still cannot find the place oboi wan. so we change again to pasir ris farm mart. but also nth. end up keep finding fisherman village. oboi went to ask ppl abt it and ppl told him is at east coast. so we went. end up went to the food court at east coast de. but is late le. so mostly already close. lol. ended up change to amk central. haha. after reach, the coffee shop also like got nth le. so we sae go back my house there. stupid oboi. sae wan eat mac. but end up he wan go coffee shop. haha. pei them eat le then we all went home at abt 1 plus.

is fun actually. it make me wan to learn my car asap. haha. or maybe find a bf have car or bike? LOL. Dreaming la. haha.

got to stop here le. have to work le. update once again. ^^

~When can i stop all the stress and fan nao? when then can i start to enjoy my life like how i use to? haiz. dunno how long can i hold.~

[[I'm mssng You.]]

update

2009-05-24T15:12:00.002+08:00

i'm back to update blog as promise.

22/o5/o9

after work meet ash at tanjong pagar then we took train back to amk. back home bath then went out. take train to woodlands. then went to 888 eat our dinner. after dinner we walk to ting's place. but end up i walk the wrong way. and the stupid ash keep suan me. kns. so we actually walk alot. lol. she can laugh all the way lo. from 600+ we walk to 800+ she all the way saying me. reach ting's place then realise todae no ban gong. so end up nv go up. sit under the void deck to see where to go. end up who noe ting they all come down. kanna spot. lol. chat awhile then we took bus back to intercharge. thinking wan go tpy or amk. end up we go amk. haha. chat at void deck till 1 plus then went home. tat silly sae will walk home. diaox. end up she reach home msg me saying she took cab. lol. after clean up and everything went to slp at 2 plus.

23/o5/o9

late for work as usual. play mj all the way during work. lol. after work meet ash at amk. after tat i went home take passport. went to amk centre to change money. both veri broke le. end up still go malaysia. haha. cos singapore also sian la. we change RM100 only. which is Sin42.50. haha. we slipt half. after change money we went to take train to woodlands. then bus in. stupid jam tat cos us reach malaysia at 5pm if not wrong. once we reach we buy cig, after smoke then went to eat. walk around city square only cos her frenz not free to come bring her go far. so we walk around city square. up and down mani times lo. haha. i saw a "脚链" which i really like. it cost RM40. but i dun wan buy. as after pay dae we gg in again. keke. brought a veri cute key chain which i like and she brought a ring which she wan. walk till veri sian liao we go to mac for a drink and thinking where to go. after tat decide to go watch movie. hee. we watch night at the museum 2 @ 840pm. after buying ticket i was saying dunno will we keep coming here watch show ant. haha. cos it cost RM11 per ticket. which is sin only 5+. watch movie in jb 2 ticket = sin 1 ticket de money lei. lol. there is still some time so we walk down to smoke after tat go up to toilet then buy drinks then go in le. is not a bad show. but of cos if nv watch the first movie at first will feel abit blur la. after tat will be ok le. we both like the monkey so much la. so cute lo. haha.after movie we went to toilet then take lift down to first floor then back to custom. reach singapore at 12. lol. with 100RM we can play till so much. haha. lucky still got last train to amk. if not think we have to walk back le. haha.

took train back to amk and back to my house void deck. sit there chat once again. at abt 1 plus 2 i think tat silly sae wan to go toilet. (i think i should name her toilet queen) cos she always find toilet de. lol. =x i was abit tired so ask her go up house de toilet ba. end up slack at my house online. at abt 4 plus we both hungry le. so i cook maggie mee and soup to eat. long time didnt cook le. everything is salty! lol. haha. but still silly finish all the noodles. ^^ but the soup i didnt finish. watch online movie will 5 plus when gt first bus then she leave. then i go slp. have a veri great dae todae.

24/o5/o9

wake up at 1 plus. force myself wake up cos if slp too much later nite no nd slp le. tml no nd work le lo. haha. online since wake up. chat with ash then after tat alot of problem call. went to bath and now here to blog update blog as waiting for ash to get ready. have to rush out le. meeting jas to settle some things. haiz. sian. y guys all so sux la. f lo. anyway forget it.

gg tpy now and will be meeting zhong at tpy then to see sin tua things.

jus now send msg and sae fatty. i really cannot stand the hot and cold le. forget it. i totally give up. i gg to start a brand new refresh. make myself happy then keep living in the memories. i must walk out of the circle. after so mani things i realise guys is all the same. anyway enough of all stupid things le.

gonna stop here. will update again. ^^

lastly thanks ash that bring me so mani laughter these daes. i do enjoy ya. u also dun think so much le la. r/s is like tat de. ^^

[[I'm gg to change. and to be who i m. is up to u to accept or hate me k. wat i hope now is jus wan more frenz! ]]

reply post

2009-05-24T02:35:00.002+08:00

jus wan to reply post for pei.

gal i jus saw your blog. i'm alright now le. sorri i dun noe how to tell u wat had happen. anyway wat i can sae is too much things have happen within 1 week. which i dunno how to explain also. will try to find time go look for you then tell u ya.

btw u seems quite unhappy. but i noe find u talk u also wun sae. i dunno y but since u choose not to sae i also wun force. but if u really nd to talk jus give me a call ba.

now my things is veri veri messy till i ownself also dunno. find one dae meet up then sae ya. u take care k.

blog will be updated again. abit lazy to type le. todae too much things.

[[现在只希望所有的一却都可以变得完美。我以经累了。该放的时后时终要放。]]